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Day 8....

Apr 17, 2012 - 0 comments
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Woke up early..but still got a good 7 hours sleep!  I have a hate/love relationship with sleep now.  I hate that another day has ended because it's been so great, BUT I love the thought of another day to come!  Even waking up earlier than I have in a long while I'm good.....nice strong coffee, a good morning chillin with my honey before he was off to work and now I'm blaring music on our surround sound and singing along.  My dogs think I"m insane but they hide their ridicule by pretending to sleep and ignoring me.  I think they're just jealous that I have the thumbs and I get to choose the music.  But I digress......Usually this time of morning I have to shake the "heavy" feeling...ya know?....the kinda blues-y feel?  Today...it wasn't really there!  I do know the amino acids in the protein shake (that I get at Walmart of all places!!) and the mid-day vitamin B complex is a MUST!  I skipped my B's yesterday and could tell a difference.  Today I will remember!!  Already the thought of the first days of w/d makes me sick when I even THINK of pills....so not a craving at all.  I"m sure things will change and I'm all prepared for them.  Sticky notes here and there.....little messages on my laptop...even my phone!  As I've said before, I'm realizing FINALLY how important thinking ahead about after care and planning ahead of time for triggers is SO important!  I've even made playlists online....positive, upbeat, get-yer-*** moving kinda songs....all ready for when needed! :o)  Essential oils for aromatherapy stress relief and mental stimulation.  Getting out today in my convertible ....even though it's pouring cats and dogs.  I have a charity event this Friday so lots to do!  Advice today....again....KEEP BUSY!  You keep your mind and body busy and those stupid little thoughts don't have room to flutter in and if they do they go as quickly as they come.  Also....DO NOT let other's problems or stresses become yours!!!  Going through some of that today...BUT even though I love these people, their probs aren't mine.  I can be there for them and love them but I don't need to carry their baggage.  I'm sure I'll pop in later.....got some boogy-ing  to do while I sweep and clean my house!  Much peace and love to all! Keep up the great work!!  You deserve to smile, FEEL, and reveal your TRUE YOU to the world.....and the world will be better for it!

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Day 7....

Apr 16, 2012 - 0 comments
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Fell asleep around 11-ish,,,give or take 15 minutes.  I try not to look at the clock at night...I find that really gets to me. I woke up around 7.  Not too bad!!  Only "depressed" feeling I had was the thought that my other half wouldn't be here at home with me today.  Being alone can wreak a little havoc.  I suggest to everyone...get your social life back as soon as possible!!!  I'm going to go visit my sister and her grandbaby today!!  That little girl makes me smile like non other. <3  Actually have no need for immodium today and my body aches are ...well....I cant' tell that I have any..??  Other than the normal crappy-mattress-aches. LOL  Another day that I woke up and didn't totally dread it being here...I'll take that as well!  Going to be doing some yard work to get it all pretty for spring!  The sun is shining, flowers are blooming...omg...did  mention the smells of the outdoors??  Flowers were so strong and sooo wonderful! Loving life clean, clear and, for the most part, happy!  I wish everyone could feel this way...I know everyone has it in them!  Much love and peace.... <3

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LOVE day 6!

Apr 15, 2012 - 0 comments
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This was my first post of the day, but it's more of a journal entry...
Wow!  Had a rough evening.....always get achey and slight rls at night.  Tylenol and aspirin seem to ease that up a little.  I actually SLEPT tho!  Fell asleep at 10 something and woke up around 7:15. I'll take that!! :o)  So far today....*sllight* ups and downs in emotions.  I'm not alone though so that *really* helps! Advice for anyone having some emotional probs.....go visit someone, ask a friend over...someone you love/loves you and you can trust.  Feeling little head...I dunno...dizzies/shockies???  I'll get up and just have a little funny disorienting feeling for just a sec but really only more annoying than anything.  I also woke up and realized I wasn't dreading another day.  When on the pills I noticed that I just hated going to bed because I knew another day was to come.  Now I look forward to tomorrow.  I can't express the feeling. <3  This is probably more appropriate for a journal entry but I know sometimes people need to hear a little of the positive...especially during trying times like these.  I hope everyone is doing great and hang in there!!  You deserve a clean life.  The days of agony where so worth the feeling of just this day alone! Much love and peace....

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today is weird.....

Apr 13, 2012 - 0 comments

I woke up and felt a bit sore...like I hadn't moved all night.  I'm not nearly as nauseated as yesterday...just ate a bowl of cereal and it's not messing with anything yet.  My mood....it's a bit up and down....could be the vitamins not sure.  I just feel different today...and it's day 3??!!  I did take half a pill....mind you this is from taking 8 a day 3 days ago.  I hope by doing that it isn't setting me back and I'll be feeling horrible all over again.  "Tapering" has been a subject I've always been confused about.  I actually feel like I could get in a car and go for a drive or even a little 10 minute walk or so.  I"m really confused by today's "feelings"  I was totally expecting today to be horrendous...even worse than yesterday which was almost unbearable.  I can honestly say I almost feel normal.....not even the "dizzies" or to much of a foggy head.  ???

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