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***** to be me

Apr 17, 2012 - 0 comments

Once again i got left alone while Cher went off with my friend to the Tri - Cities all day . why do i even bother anymore.

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So damn tired

Apr 15, 2012 - 4 comments

Well another day of pain and i really dont want to do this anymore i have taken my one 12 oxy and then throughout the day have had to take 4 six hour oxy for brakethrough pain and still hurt.

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Mood *****

Apr 15, 2012 - 0 comments

between all the damn pain and then feeling pissy on top of that i just want to give up.I feel so alone all the time anymore . I really want to just die .
Just got to say why is it that my wife is a CNA and she can care for all them people at her work but dont give a **** about me.

She has claimed that im faking it,lazy,and that im a piece of ****. I really wish that was the fact id go get a job and take care of my family the way i should .**** i havent had Sex for almost a year now. Sometimes i feel that if i could have sex with someone it would ease my depression. I feel so damn mad at myself for everything that has happened these past 9 years.

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Happy F**King Easter

Apr 08, 2012 - 0 comments

kids did pretty good today now if there mother would be more into family instead of herself.She spent half of the day sleeping due to working last night but after waking up stayed in the tent while everyone else was out doing things .finally around 6 she got out showered and then around 7 finally hid the eggs for the egg hunt I feel so bad the my son Jarrett had to go home without dinner at 8 since he lives with my brother and sister in law  and still now going on 9 and still no dinner and she isnt here she claims to have gone to see someone at the hospital we are all so hungry . Atleast i got to spend a beautiful day with my kids god bless.  Oh i feel so damn angry.

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