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Oct 25, 2012 - 0 comments

I feel like charlie brown and I just want to say; Awww rats!!
It's the peanuts I tell you. That's why i cant lose weight.
I think I am addicted to them, but after I finish this bag of them, i refuse to buy more for a long while. Instead I will eat my almonds.
I dont seem to hve a problem over eating them. Probably because they are not as flavorful and are a much coarser nut. I will still eat peanut butter, open faced of course.

It's my nerves. I have been trying to eat away my stress.
I even find myself at the computer chomping on sunflower seeds, or candies at work. I need to fin some other way to relieve that stress instead of snacking. I drink some tea, and that helps, also tried chewing gum, but that gives me gas.
Maybe I need to go back to taking my raw veggies to work.
That may help too. Gives me something healthy to munch on.

also I really want to have a good cheat day without feeling guilty about it. so frustrating. when i dont see that scale moving down, i feel so disappointed.

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Back At It

Oct 16, 2012 - 0 comments

So I fell off a little. Not from dieting but recording on my tracker. ineeded a break from accounting for every little thing because I envision a time when I will be holding myself accountable for what I am putting into my body without having to calorie count. I have been memorizing alot of the foods I eat and the portions and that has made  it much simpler for me to control my intake and now I dont feel like I need to write every thing down. It is a time saver, but I do like the tracker because it helped me so some overall patterns I was having and I definitely figured out that nuts are a huge weakness for me and quickly builds up my calories, so i have to be much more cautious in my nut intake. I have been eatinga little popcorn and it has been very rewarding. I need to splurge a little from time to time. Plus it is home made, so no added butter or other junk. Very natural this way, and the kids love it too. They think its better than movie popcorn. Me too.
I have notcied that 5 hour energy cuts my appetite some. I dont know if that is good or bad, because I probably do not need to skip snacks since I eat few calories per meal, but it sure does help my workout quality. i have way more energy and stamina to go and push harder. I sleepy now.
Good night

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water weight

Sep 28, 2012 - 0 comments

so after weighing today, my weight was back down, and since i exercised even my swelling was better. it would seem that my 5 lb weight gain was really from water retention. this is an unfortunate side effect of steroids.
so i dont feel so bad now about the last weekend splurge - since my weight really maintained. whew i was worried that my metabolism had completely shut down or something.
im like how can i eat so little and gain weight. that was about to have me very discouraged, but i much better now

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trying to get back to it

Sep 27, 2012 - 0 comments

okay so i slipped up a bit have put on 5 lbs in 1 week eating less than 1500 calories a day, but i missed 2 days of exercise last week and this week. i noticed my body is retaining fluid - my legs have been tight and swollen. my RA is low medium flare, mornings, and late afternoons are hardest. I need to stop snacking so much. I think if i can work on getting more protein in my diet, then i wont feel like i constantly need something to eat, because i just always feel hungry. i also need to get my afternoon nap in. i need the rest really. i need to get more sleep in general and stop staying up so late. it really is counterproductive. ive been getting headaches too. i think its because i tired. i told my husband i need to take a vacation so i can get myself together. even my right elbow is bothering me again and i been having a slight stiffness in my fingers that i havent felt in awhile. and to top it off the doctor wants to wean down on the steroids. I am like for real. i want to think positive, but work is going to get more difficult if i go down on the steroids. i need them to control the symptoms. i have felt my best since being on them. i cant imagine now doing without. oh well. this i definitely have to pray about.

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