2nd day on food journal. It really does help. Hope I can keep it up. When I eat something bad, there it is staring at me on the page. Think it will keep me on track.

Took a day off and did my favorite thing in the world - sleep in. Did a load of laundry, an exercise tape. Feel like a woman of leisure. Then, to my surprise - someone called me about a job. The pay is not great, but the benefits are. And it would be in a different field. Maybe advancement potential. I would learn about retirement accounts.

She is going to send me a test that I can complete online. Don't know what that is about. But she said it was timed. Anyway, it's always nice to get a phone call and know someone is interested in you. Even if it doesn't pan out.

So today is a great day starting off. And I get a facial later. Haircut Tuesday. I will just try to have the mind set that the next 10 days are Take Care of Me days. Even though I go to work next week again, I will pace  myself and try to keep the stress at bay.

Life is good!

Think I'll start an exercise tracker. I need to keep track of what I am doing and hope it will encourage me to go to yoga class. Also, want to work out at least 4 times a week. Have been slacking off lately. Winter is hell.

February 27th. Found out today I didn't get the job downstairs on the second floor. So stressed out this week. Had a fight with my boss. Tired of fighting. I just want to get along - come in, do my job, go home. Why is that so hard.

I think the only reason I didn't get the job downstairs is because I didn't apply fast enough. Another gal in my area got the job and she was so happy. She, like  me, just wanted to escape the situation on the 3rd floor. I need to get it together and start reacting faster. She advised me to work with the HR person Keri. Keri helped her a lot and kept her upbeat. She had posted out 6 times in the last 6 months and finally got this job. I was really happy for her, but bummed for myself.

I just feel like crying. Got a call from another company last couple of weeks. She was so positive and said she thought I had some great experience. Thought I had a chance, but someone else got that job too. I will keep applying for other jobs with this company. You never know. But I can't help but feel defeated sometimes. Ugh.

I really need to make a point of going to a yoga class down the street and trying to relax and meditate. Think it would help. I'm so wound up. Couldn't hardly sleep at all this week. I am exhausted.

Notice when I am stressed, I head for the food. Need to find another passion besides eat. Does hurt that the weather is bad. Did jog 3x this week though. And next week it will be in the 40's. So I will get out. But still......just need to hang in there. Glad I can vent in this journal. Feel like crying. I have felt like crying all day. Guess I could call a friend or my mom. I know they don't mind. But hate to always call with bad news. I want to tell them something good. They vent to me too, so no biggie. Just want to get through the negative and defeatest thoughts and find a happy place.

Think I will put on a movie and try to relax. I'm stuff. Ate pizza for dinner. Dumb dumb dumb. It was great though. Anyway, I did go to the store this week and I have plenty of fruit. I'll start writing down what I eat again. That might help. Maybe I should track it online.

Tired of writing now. Think I'll cruise an art museum website. Let me see, what state? Never been to Boston, MA. I'll look for a museum there. Bye......