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prayer for addiction

Sep 06, 2008 - 2 comments

Dear God,

I come to You as I come to no one else.

I am so sorry. I have tried to throw away my life, my body, my soul—through addiction.

But recognition of my addiction has never given me power to control it.

You know this. You never blame me. You know the truth.

Addiction is an attractor field in which minds and bodies become mired to escape emotional pain.

But there is another, better way to escape pain.

Pain is transcended through an authentic calling from You.

Therefore, I surrender myself, now, to You.

I demand, now, in this moment, Father, that You call me—that You call me loudly.

You raise me up out of addiction and into a higher level attractor field.

And as You raise me, so do You raise Humanity out of addiction and into a higher level attractor field.

Together we rise, as one force in You, one at a time and together.

Because the world needs us. We rise or we fall, together.

For You need me. I am Your Thoughts, Your Voice, Your Hands.

I rejoice in awe over my inherent holiness: I am where You reside.

By Your grace, as I read this, my mind is aligned with Yours.

By Your grace, the power of my mind is multiplied exponentially by all who read this.

Aligned with You, we are more powerful than any evil—
or any substance—can ever be.

Together WE form a conduit of love that reaches into my need for addiction and I am healed.

By healing myself, I now heal Humanity's need for addiction.

Joy fills my soul. My gratitude is infinite.

Thank You.

And so it is.

methadone in pregnancy

Sep 06, 2008 - 2 comments

this is an extremely helpful website explaining all aspects of methadone in pregnancy and breastfeeding. i am providing this for women who find themselves in a methadone program.
this does not mean i am encouraging anyone to pursue this program unless all other means of have been exhausted with regards to opiate addiction.

drug use in pregnancy

Jan 22, 2008 - 3 comments

pregnancy drug use

there have been numerous questions regarding the use of narcotics in pregnancy. enclosed is a link discussing this topic. it is written for professionals but it is easy to understand and is quite informative. if you find yourself here and have questions after researching this please feel free to ask. if i do not know the answer i will find it for you. there are also links within this link to resources for treatment plans. i feel this is very important as once you are clean from your addiction in pregnancy, your followup is paramount. i know you want to be the best mother you can be for the rest of your life. i know it can be done. i will be happy to help you in any way that i can. take care of yourself and the rest will follow through!


Jan 17, 2008 - 1 comments

john fisher's personal transition curve
The awareness that events lie outside our range of understanding or control. I believe the problem here is that we are unable to adequately picture the future. We do not have enough information to allow ourselves to anticipate behaving in a different way within new organization. We are unsure how to adequately construe acting in the new situation.

The awareness that one's viewpoint is recognised and shared by others. The impact of this is two-fold. At the basic level there is a feeling of relief that something is going to change, and not continue as before. Whether the past is perceived positively or negatively, there is still a feeling of anticipation, and possibly excitement, at the prospect of improvement. On another level, there is the satisfaction of knowing that some of your thoughts about the old system were correct (generally no matter how well we like the status quo, there is something that is unsatisfactory about it) and that something is going to be done about it. In this phase we generally expect the best and anticipate a bright future, placing our own construct system onto the change and seeing ourselves succeeding. One of the dangers in this phase is that of the inappropriate psychological contract. We may perceive more to the change, or believe we will get more from the change than is actually the case. We need to manage this phase and ensure unrealistic expectations are managed and redefined in organizations terms, without alienating the individual.

The awareness of an imminent incidental change in one's core behavioural system. People will need to act in a different manner and this will have an impact on both their self-perception and on how others externally see them. However, in the main, they see little change in their normal interactions and believe they will be operating in much the same way, merely choosing a more appropriate, but new, action.

The awareness of an imminent comprehensive change in one's core behavioural structures. Here we perceive a major lifestyle change, one that will radically alter their future choices and other people's perception of them. We are unsure as to how we will be able to act/react in what is, potentially, a totally new and alien environment - one where the "old rules" no longer apply and there are no "new" ones established as yet.

Awareness of dislodgement of self from one's core self perception. Once we begin exploring our self-perception, how we acted/reacted in the past and looking at alternative interpretations we begin to re-define our sense of self. This, generally, involves identifying what are our core beliefs and how closely we have been to meeting them. Recognition of the inappropriateness of our previous actions and the implications for ourselves as people can cause guilt as we realize the impact of our behaviour.

This phase is characterised by a general lack of motivation and confusion. Individuals are uncertain as to what the future holds and how they can fit into the future "world". Our representations are inappropriate and the resultant undermining of our core sense of self leaves us adrift with no sense of identity and no clear vision of how to operate.

The awareness that your values, beliefs and goals are incompatible with those of others. The pitfalls associated with this phase are that the we become unmotivated, unfocused and increasingly dissatisfied and gradually withdraw, either mentally (by just "going through the motions", doing the bare minimum, actively undermining the change by criticising/complaining) or physically by resigning.

Continued effort to validate social predictions that have already proved to be a failure. The problem here is that we continue to operate processes that have repeatedly failed to achieve a successful outcome and are no longer part of the new process or are surplus to the new way of working. The new processes are ignored at best and actively undermined at worst.

This stage is defined by a lack of acceptance of any change and denies that there will be any impact on us. We keep acting as if the change has not happened, using old practices and processes and ignoring evidence or information contrary to our belief systems.

It can be seen from the transition curve that it is important for us to understand the impact that the change will have on our own personal construct systems; and for us to be able to work through the implications for our self perception. Any change, no matter how small, has the potential to impact ourselves and may generate conflict between existing values and beliefs and anticipated altered ones.

One danger for the individual, team and organization occurs when an individual persists in operating a set of practices that have been consistently shown to fail (or result in an undesirable consequence) in the past and that do not help extend and elaborate their world-view. Another danger area is that of denial where people maintain operating as they always have denying that there is any change at all. Both of these can have detrimental impact on trying to change the culture and focus of our actions.