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Aug 04, 2015 - 7 comments

So my husband and I have a rocky relationship.  One minute he's all in and a few months later he isn't in to it at all and is thinking about leaving.  That is where we are now.  He texts me now and says this girl at work asked him to go camping on Friday.  I test back wait you or us?  I don't think it can be just you with a girl.  He texts back no not just me Claudia and Derrick too.  Two other people on his work team.  Don't know if they are married or single but I know the one who invited him is single.  I just replied hmmm.  My initial reaction is are you ******* kidding me?  But my other reaction is **** it, if you are gonna cheat your gonna cheat camping or not.  In fact he goes by himself to Peru to visit family and then onto Rio brazil by himself and could cheat there.  I hate being controlling this is not my first rodeo, being my second marriage and am not at all into being someones mother and if he thinks it is a good thing to go then go for it, will it affect my desire to be in this relationship, probably but he has been killing my feelings towards him for years with all the flip flopping he does.  Oh by the way since I got back from disney (with the kids) we have only had sex 3 times in almost 6 weeks.  Before then he was always trying at least 4 times a week.  So theres that

When you don't love your husband

Sep 27, 2014 - 3 comments

I feel literally nothing for him any longer.  nothing.. dead.  I am glad when he is out.  I have no desire to do anything with him.  It really is his fault because I loved him in the beginning.  He was just such an *** it is gone.  Parissa is 6...  how many more years can I stay in it for her?  fffff.. who knew being a grown up would be so hard

birds and the bee's at 6? Funny

Aug 07, 2014 - 2 comments

So my 6 year old was examining herself I guess and told me her vagina was cut.  I asked for her to show me and she showed me her (how embarrassing what is it called?  her birthing hole lol) anyway I said it is not cut that is just how it is.  She asked why it was "cut"  I said that is the hole that babies come out of.  She thought about that for a while and then said mommy I'm scared.  I said about what?  About having babies.  I said there is nothing to be scared of and she said but the hole is soooo small!!! hahahaha....  Well I told her it grows just like your body grows.  No need to tell her it doesn't grow enough for a baby to come out of!

Missing mom from Dundee Oregon

Jul 28, 2014 - 0 comments

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