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New Addtion to the Family (with picture)

Mar 10, 2008 - 1 comments

My wife and I have been tossing up the idea of a dog for about a year now to go along with our 3 kitties and pot-bellied pig. We wanted to get a puppy when the baby was still little so that they could bond pretty good. We both agreed that we wanted a smaller dog and my wife was supposed to get a chihuahua but that did not work out (thank God, I didn't really like that idea!) We both really like bassett hounds, but they were like 1200 dollars at the pet store, so we were pretty much out of luck - not paying that much for a dog.

Well, we went to the pet store with the kids on Saturday and saw a bassett puppy and it was still expensive. So we came home and got a paper and there was a breeder who had 8 (locally) last Friday. We called her and she said she had no more. We were pretty disappointed, but I started looking on the internet and was referred to a breeder in Kansas by the AKC. Long story short, we are getting our beautiful bassett puppy, Molly, tomorrow. I paid to have her flown here, so we have to go to the airport and pick her up. Even with the airfare, it was less than half as much. We should have fun! I have one picture here, and another in my photos. Just thought I would share!


I went...I saw...I conquered...and it was AWESOME

Feb 13, 2008 - 3 comments

despite all my worry ahead of time, I decided to face my fears and take the boys to the Monster Truck show like I had promised.

Turns out it was not that bad at all! It was so easy and we had a alot of fun.

Friday night I told myself that I was going to wake up in the morning and not worry about it at all. Many times, my problem is that I worry and become anxious well before I even get to the place or situation that I think is going to cause anxiety. This came even after the local news had a story about the fact that there were three events going on at the civic center on Saturday with an expected 15,000 to 20,000 people! For a smaller city, that is crazy!

So I woke up on Saturday with the baby at about 7:00. We ate breakfast, played, and watched cartoons on tv until it was time to get the boys up to get ready. We had to be at lowes at 10:00 for a scouting event where they built wooden valentines boxes. As usual, we were about 15 minutes late to that, but it worked out okay - we left at 11:00 in an attempt to get to the pit party that started at 11:30. This was where we could go down to the track and meet the drivers, take pictures, etc. It takes about 25 mintues to get to the civic center, so I knew we would be late. I thought no big deal though because I didn't think too many people would go to it. I usually like to be the first to anything though because for some reason, going into a crowd bothers me more than already being there and a crowd forming.

Anyway, the Friday beforehand, I bought ear plugs and shooters ear muffs to block out the engine roar and asked Austin, my younger boy, to get the bags with them in it from the table before we left. On the way to Roanoke, my oldest, Telle, pointed out that Austin had not brought the ear plugs (but remembered to get the ear muffs). I also noticed that for some reason Austin had decided to wear a very very dirty white shirt for some reason. So I had to stop at Wal Mart on the way to get the plugs and a new shirt for austin. More late....

There was a shuttle from a parking garage about a mile away from the civic center that I decided to use, so as to avoid all the traffic. I AM SO GLAD THAT I DID. There were so many people already there.

We arrived with about 20 minutes left in the pit party, so I wanted to get as many pictures as I could and find our seats. After about 3 pictures I soon realized the one thing that only happens in sitautions like this - my batteries were almost dead in the camera! in the rush, I compeletely forgot to get more. However, I was able to get enough before it went fully dead; however, my camera does not work as well when the flash is not used - it makes the pictures blurry for some reason.

So we got some pictures and found our seats, which were fantastic! I made a good call in buying them the day beforehand. They were right on the front row at the starting line and were three seats all to themselves. Do not know how I lucked out on that, but I'll take it!

After spending way too much money on tshirts, food, programs, and a stuffed monster truck for the baby, we watched the show and not a single time did I have even a hint of anxiety or panic!

So all in all, the show was great, but I am unsure if it was good because of the actual show or because of the fact that I finally was able to do something and actually have fun. My anxiety has significantly hinder this in the the past 7 years. I am guessing it was a combination of both. I AM still a real person :) and I am getting better! I am so excited.

How did I do this you might ask? Well (and this will not come as a surprise to those of you that know me), I used Dr. Claire Weekes' method of facing, accepting, and floating, which works wonders. Additionally, I did take a miniscule .25 mg xanax before the show started, just to be safe, which I am convinced now I probably did not need! I am going to beat this thing yet!


And two more...WTH!?!

Feb 08, 2008 - 3 comments

I was debating on whether or not to post this to the group due to the fact that I did not want to upset anyone else about it, but I had to get it out....rather than posting it to the forums, I will post it in my journal since it is a bit more personal...before anyone reads any further, if you are upset easily about sad things that happen in life, please do not read on. My intent is not to upset anyone, but to help myself deal, that is all.

I just got off the phone with my brother a few minutes ago and was told some tragic news:

Another one of my very good friendsm Kevin, (with whom I have lost touch in the past three years, but hey, once a friend, always a friend) passed away on Tuesday. He was only 24. He was engaged to the love of his life and they have a 1 month old baby together, which ALWAYS makes things so much worse.

Here is the story (and seriously, do not read any further if this will upset you, it only gets worse)....

His cousin Troy (another friend of mine) and he were as close as two people can get. Troy had been having problems and was separated from his childs mother. She told him that it was fully over and he decided to take his own life two Monday's ago. Seeing as how they were so close, this was really tough on Kevin and he had a really hard time with it.

After the wake for Troy, which was on this past tuesday for some reason, Kevin (who has always drank a bit much) was drinking, but no more than usual. His fiancee said that he got in bed like he normally did to go to sleep. She woke up at about 5:00 AM the next morning and tried to wake Kevin up, but he had passed away.

What the medical examiner concluded was that there were no lethal levels or mixtures of anything in his system, so it was rule "natural causes". If you ask me, there is nothing natural at all about a 24 year old dying in his sleep. Since he was so upset, most of his friends (me included) seem to think that he died of a broken heart. It sounds awful and really sad, but we think it is true nonetheless.

That being said, I ask that you pray not for me but for his family and his little boy is is just a mere 1 month old and will never personally know his dad. However, with all the memories that so many of us shared with Kevin (and Troy for that matter) his son will always know what a great guy his dad was.

Thank you for listening...(or reading anyway)...

Kevin McClure

Troy Funk

Rest in peace my friends, you will surely be missed....

Bring on the Monsters...

Feb 08, 2008 - 1 comments

Well, whoever read my forum post will know that I was battling the thought of taking my two boys to the monster truck show at our little civic center tomorrow. I do not have to even explain to any of you the reasons behind it. And like cali said, I did a bad thing. I spent all day yesterday googling things about monster truck shows (carbon monoxide exhaust fumes, you name it). Also, the crowded arena with thousands and traffic, we all know the drill.

Well, my wife was gonna go, but ends up she cannot and I could not find any one else to go.. I really did not want to let my boys down as my anxiety has caused us (them) to miss out on many young boy things.

So, last night I made the decision......I am going to go and face my fears...besides I think (really really hope) that it may be fun (after all, I am a guy and we are supposed to like huge loud car-crusing trucks on steroids right?) :)

Not only that, I bought the tickets online and come to find out, there are on the FRONT ROW! (The good news is that I have my typical "out" should I need it. We are right next to an entryway.

So this should be fun...pray for me folks.

I also got a connection and got hooked up with pit passes for before the show, I figured this way, I can get used to the setting and atmosphere beforehand - hopefully any panic and anxiety I would have will be gone before the actual show starts!

In a way, (being a Christian and all) I think that the situation that occurred (with no one being able to go besides me) is unusual - so I beleive God has given me no other option. Maybe this will be it...maybe this will be the final victory over my panic and anxiety and I can start my healing!

So, I will talk with everyone sometime in the next few days and I will post pictures!

A little anxious, but prepared....