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Tough road ahead..

Jul 26, 2008 - 3 comments

Well on Tuesday I will be starting school as a senior. I will have to wake up extra early get ready and then get Ayla ready for daycare. Then after school take the bus to get Ayla then take the bus home. Whew! And at my school you can graduate with a job. And Im in the medical academy so I get to take CNA courses this year so I'll also have to ride the bus there some days. But Hey I can do it! It's going to be tough since I have to do a senior project and presentation. But I know that graduatuing is way better than not no matter how hard it is. It's only one school year that will make mine and Ayla's life SO much better in the future! Babys Dad is officially out of the picture. But its okay. It didnt make a difference if he was here or not. But his family is really involved with Ayla.. we take her every Sunday to see them or they come and get her. That's all I can ask for! Wish me luck!

Really Pissed

Jul 19, 2008 - 1 comments

Okay well for a minute my babys father and I had everything straightend out and everything was going great. Well today he calls and tells me that one of my "friends" told hem that the whole time we've been together Ive been cheating on him and that Im nasty. Okay for one all my "friends" deserted me after I had gotten preg. so I cant think of who this could be and for two I have NEVER cheated on him and he's the ONLY guy Ive ever been with so how could I be nasty. So know he really doesnt want anything to do with me or my daughter and will not listen to word I have to say. Honestly I dont know what to do. I know I have to suck up my feelings because of my daughter but I cant help but to be sad... I mean I love this boy so much. We've been together for so long for him to just blow everything on something thats completly untrue and to believe some girl over me just isnt right. Part of me thinks he is just making it up because he doesnt want to be with me because I know I did nothing wrong during the years we've been together. ANd I asked him to let both of us talk to this girl face to face and get this straightened out and he says no. So now Im stuck. Im about to start school and my daughter will be going to the nursery right across the street and we have NO ride home because he was going to pick us up and now Im here with no car no job and no money. Everythings so messed up.


Jun 29, 2008 - 0 comments

GEEZ! I never knew how boring it can be when your babys away! Lol.. Ayla went with her grandma to Lowes to get out of the house, while Im here doing her laundry. We'll the 27th was my birthday.My baby's father bought me a diamond earrings and ring set. They are really nice! I was surprised by the thought. Then we went to the IMAX theatre in Dublin. It was nice. But it was funny how all my "friends" got so mad at me because I didnt want to go drink and do whatever they do with them. Haha Im a mom now I cant be doing all the ****. Now there not talking to me. Haha. Yea it *****. But I guess I figured out who my true friends are now that Ayla's here!

Just feel like writing!

Jun 26, 2008 - 0 comments

Well Ayla's asleep. So I get some time to myself! I've been stuck in the house all week because there is really bad air right now and there's a warning to try to stay inside. So Ayla and I are really bored! And implus tonarrow is my birthday! This sux! And we got the pack n play and Ayla will absolutley not sleep in it! I get her to sleep, lay her down in it, and she's right back up! I stayed up until 3 in the morning last night trying to get her to sleep in there and she finally did and then woke up at 7! Whew! I'm trying my hardest to get a sleep schedule down because I start school July29 and I am going to have to wake up at 5am to get everything ready for her and myself! But other than that Im enjoying my days off with her! She's growing so Fast!!