Aug 31, 2012
To be honest, I don't like to talk about my personal problems all that much; especially my depression. This is a med website though, and I thought "Hey, maybe I should make a journal of my depression for other people with depression, BPD, anxiety, bipolar disorder, and other mental health-related diagnoses to read and relate to. That way they know, and I know that we're not alone."
I'm a fantastic listener and I guarantee anyone can confront me with any problem and I'll be a willing shoulder to lean on at the very least. Unless you're just trolling or trying to hit on me for some odd reason.
A little background on me:
I've been dealing with depression ever since I can remember but was just diagnosed with it in late 2011. Prior to this, I've experienced massive feelings of worthlessness, loneliness, fatigue, sadness, low self-esteem and other symptoms. I also have chosen self-harm as a sort of punishment for myself due to my self-loathing. I haven't really resorted to that since I began taking CeleXa, an anti-depressant, though.
When I was 12, I began starving myself. It got to the point where you could see individual ribs if I was wearing a tight shirt. On the bright side, I got over it just before I turned 14 and now am just aiming to maintain a healthy weight and look. I blame this for my small breast size since my mom is a double D and I'm just barely in between a B and a C. So girls, anorexia is not the answer! Guys like boobs!
I will say (very hesitantly) that I do have family problems. My mom and I are fine, in fact we're very close. My dad and I, though... We just don't see eye to eye on a lot of things and I never really get to express any sort of opinions around him. I'll get into that later, I'm sure.
For now, that's all I have to say. Sorry the post is so long, but I believe it's worth the read!
Feel free to contact me with anything :)