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Oct 07, 2011 - 8 comments

Pervasive Developmental Delay-Not Otherwise Specified. That is what Phin has been diagnosed with. My sweet boy is on the autism spectrum. He did such a great job at the evaluation. The testers were impressed with the way he has created a means of communication without verbal language and rudimentary pointing skills.

His current support has been amped up from 1 hour a week with his developmental educator to about 12 hours a week with not only his DE but two other support people. We have had 2 days of meetings to decide the next steps and figure things out.

I am not surprised and I am also heartbroken. I am sad and angry. I am confused and terrified. I am relieved to have an answer but how I wish it were something else, I do not know what else but just something. Even as I type that I know how lucky I am to have him and there could be so much worse that it could have been. I have not let myself cry yet as I am not quite sure I could stop.  


May 12, 2011 - 14 comments

Phin is still freakishly non-talkative for a 2-year-old. He says the following:

Bye, Hi, Thank you, Cat, Bubble, Ball (and he can meow and bark when he sees a cat or dog)

He refuses to even try to make words it seems like. He will pull you over to his cup and place your hand on it, then walk over to the fridge, open it and point to the milk. We tell him the words for all these things a hundred times a day and he has never uttered them back to us even once.  If you refuse to hand him the thing he is pointing at and just keep saying for example "Cup, Cup...Say Cup Phin" He will meltdown and lose it. Screaming, hitting himself with his hands, hitting his head on the floor/wall, throwing things, hitting you. I hate seeing him so frustrated.

We are waiting for a speech therapist to call us as our ped made a referral. I try not to get too worried but he has never called me Momma or called Chris Daddy. He won't even look at you most of the time if you speak to him. His hearing is perfect however.

I feel a sense of fear deep down and it is really getting to me. He is my world

A little IVF humor

Aug 19, 2010 - 1 comments

I sent Chris some pictures at work of Phin to brighten his day. One of the pictures showed all of Phin's curls, whisps, flyaways and general frizz that is his hair. Here is the email conversation that followed:

Chris - "He looks like a used Q-tip."
Me- "Nice thing to say about the fruit of your loins!"
Chris- "Well really it was a cup...he is my fruit cup!"

I promptly spat my drink all over the darn keyboard with that one. Poor kid is gonna hate being called fruit cup by his parents...don't you think?

Side note- Laptops and keyboards should have laugh guards to protect them when someone is drinking and reading...just a thought.

15 more weeks!

Aug 16, 2010 - 0 comments

Wow, how did this pregnancy go by so fast? I hope Zach stays in until his due date, but I have a feeling that he will be an early bird. Only time will tell. ^_^

I have finally gained back the 20 pounds that I initially lost and am feeling pretty well. Sometimes the nausea makes a come back but not too often.

As far as everything else, we are pretty much ready. We replaced all the baby gear that we had gotten rid of and pulled out all the stuff that we kept. All that needs to be done is clothes washing and that is going to wait for 9-10 more weeks at the least.

I look forward to meeting our second son.