For the past few weeks my motivation, interest, activity, and happiness have been at a low. Personal problems with family, the strain of the holidays, and the fact that Finals Week is keeping friends busy is adding to my own sadness. I haven't been sleeping well, particularly because I don't want to sleep; I have a hard time deciding to go to bed, and even when I do, I lay there. I know that I'm not happy and I don't know why. Tomorrow I'm going to seek out a counselor, and start pursuing other activities in hopes of just giving my brain too much stimuli to continue being this low. Maybe I was always this depressed and disease has made it more prominent? I don't know. I was too healthy before to care to track my moods.