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Crime - venting/ranting, Hero or YouTube?

Mar 03, 2009 - 0 comments

How close does crime have to get before we act?

When you as a responding unit enter a scene and you need to break your way into a crowd of people to find a gunshot victim being filmed in the worst moment of his life - how are you supposed to tackle that? What is heroic about making a videoclip of someone that's been shot when you stand on an armlength's distance - so close you could keep pressure at a wound or do a simple - but lifesaving - jaw thrust to help the victim breathe until qualified personell arrives with a medical kit?

What is happening to this world??? Does it make anyone a hero to send a video-clip to a newspaper online or get 480 hits at YouTube or where is this going?

Blood doesn't bother me. Death touches me but it is a natural part of life and living - the tragedy is when someone could have done something but pull up a cellphone of last model to get it on tape. That's when all of me yell: Care! Take a look at the value of a life!

The eye is the lamp of the body (Spiritual guidance through darkness)

Dec 11, 2008 - 1 comments

Luke 11:33-35

The Lamp of the Body

33"No one lights a lamp and puts it in a place where it will be hidden, or under a bowl. Instead he puts it on its stand, so that those who come in may see the light.
34Your eye is the lamp of your body. When your eyes are good, your whole body also is full of light. But when they are bad, your body also is full of darkness.
35See to it, then, that the light within you is not darkness.

Daylight savings and still going!

Oct 29, 2008 - 1 comments

Well, the clocks are turned an hour and it gets darker at night. Usually I get depressed a few days before the daylight-savings, but so far it's been going great and I'm not even a little bit stressed out of all the things that's been going on. I can guarantee you that it's been a lot - one was that I thought I'd have money for food etc while hubby was out this time around I have to really plan the shopping to make everything last until payday (I count down for that too). I am feeling a little out of zap to get started with the preparations for the final exam in december and deceber comes WAY too fast, but I'll get the books up one of these days. I need to start tonight already. Sorry that I haven't been in touch with you all. I'm doing all I can to avoid depression and it seems to be working! Yihaa.

Is "a little bit" enough to tell who you are?

Jul 18, 2008 - 2 comments

Who am I? Who am I to others? To me, I'm just this regular woman who goes from day to day, curious about what tomorrow will bring. It is a little strange to think about it - to me I just feel like this totally normal girl who doesn't fit into the 27 year lived. I drink my coffee, I have this nasty habit of sleeping those 6 minutes longer in the morning and race off just in time to get my clothes changed to a medium sized uniform which to others should signalize who I am... Or is it who I want to be that it signalizes?

A lot of questions! I'm a mother to a 5 year old girl - 5 years, that's the age when my memories are starting to come up about myself. Is she as tender as I was? Does she feel like she has a mother or does she feel that mom is someone that makes promises and breaks them with a "but hon, it's better another time..." ...?

If I look at myself yet again, I see someone who eagers to do the right thing at the right time. I react when things I say aren't heard. The things that I speak of aren't said for no reason. If I had no reason, I'd be silent about it. Obviously.

Not more than a few weeks ago, there was a tragic accident at one of the Norwegian festivals. Many were injured and got hospital care while two died of CO2 intoxication. You hear about these accidents and react. In a few hours, the tragedy is more distant and someone even forgets that there were persons immediately touched by it.
To this tragedy with the bus, the CO2 intoxication, I did too just read the headlines and walked on. It touched me deeply for a while - maybe because my mother died that way too? Then after two weeks, with a new tragedy at one of the amusement parks in Sweden this whole scenario came back (there were "only" injuries and no deaths in that accident). How do we really react when we hear of someone touched by these tragedies? Do we just go on like nothing happened, like it won't ever happen to us? I don't.

"When someone are touched by grief this way, we need to be sensitive and careful, yet warm."

That's who I want to be to others. If I only can give that much and not wear out, that's who I can be.
Working at a nursing home, that's who you get a chance to be. But you must be able to close the door behind you and go home and keep it to that.

One of the greatest challenges I have noticed with myself is that nursing homes aren't the same as acute care. At the ambulance you transport, you give immediate aid and you make sure that the face of health care that they meet in the first instance is a face that gives comfort and trust to the rest of the system. You say good bye and you know that you might never meet the same person again.
At a nursing home you have continuity. You will meet the same patients day after day .... and my greatest fear is: They'll take too much advantage of it, of me. I can't give a whole hand if I have only one finger. I can't easily draw back because tomorrow is a new day.
Do I go on as if this will never happen to me? Nope. I have plans of living a loooooong life. The day I need a place at a nursing home I am going to be happy to have someone that cares.

Oh well, a whole lot of venting!