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Great news about the cyst

Apr 01, 2008 - 0 comments

I got good news at the doctor yesterday!  My cyst is GONE!!  WOO HHOOO!!    its gone, its gone!!! All that worrying for nothing.  The doctor did tell me that I have P.C.O.D (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) but that’s much better news then you need have surgery to remove your ovary.  

He was still a little concerned that my CA125 test was abnormal.  He wants me to come back in a month and have another one.  I’m really not too worried.

I just wanted to take time to thank everyone for you prayers and find thoughts.  Thank you so much

good news!!

Mar 26, 2008 - 3 comments

My second CA 125 test results just came back and they are 37!!  I’m so excited!  I have my follow-up appointment on Monday but at least that’s a little good news :-)

How do you pick a counselor??

Mar 13, 2008 - 1 comments

I’m really depressed today and I can’t snap out of it!  I’m sitting at my desk trying to focus on work but I just can’t.  I keep telling myself “focus Kris, focus” but my mind keeps wandering off.  I’m trying to remain positive; think happy thoughts.  Well it’s not working and all I want to do is sleep.  I want to go home and crawl under the covers and stay there until tomorrow morning.

This is not good.  How do I snap out of this mood?  I was thinking about trying to find a counselor but where do you start; how do I pick?  I did a search on my healthcares website and I got 50 names within 10miles.    I think I would prefer speaking to a woman so that narrowed down the search to 17 names.  I guess I just pick on randomly and try and make an appointment.  Does anyone have any suggestions?

today i'm scared!

Mar 05, 2008 - 7 comments

Today I’m scared!  I know I can’t dwell on test results but I am of course.  My CA 125 came back as 65 and I’m nervous. I know it’s not always accurate and I keep trying to tell myself that but 65 is above average.  Now I have to just sit and wait three more weeks for another ultra-sound & CA 125 test.  3 WEEKS is SO LONG!  

I got my test results last night and I haven’t told my partner yet.  I’m just not ready to see the look of panic in his eyes.  It’s also as if it’s not real until I tell him.  He is going to be so nervous and it’s going to make me more panicky.  I need to deal with my results myself before I start sharing them.  I know that’s wrong because he loves me so much and really wants to know.
How can I find peace with not knowing what’s going to happen?  I need to figure out a way