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Sexual Frustration

Dec 19, 2012 - 0 comments
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My boyfriend and I have been together for nearly 3 years.
I am 20, he is 18, and we already live together.

Before we had a relationship he was very intensively into porn. He would have a wank about twice or three times a day. When we first got into a relationship I was quite uncomfortable with it. This was because, at a young age, I got raped and photos were taken of me and he always wanked to this age group.
He claimed to understand this and had "promised" to not wank to porn. After quite some time I found out he was doing it anyways. We had a good talk and I had accepted it. I wouldn't notice if he had done anything and the sex was still amazing... Until a month or two ago.

My boyfriend will wank to porn every chance he gets that I'm not around. And if I'm home for too long, he will take his phone to the toilet and he will do it there. Now I don't mind that, but the sex has been awful lately, if we even have any.
It started on my birthday... We were getting in the mood, I was excited for my "birthday sex" and it was a total disappointment. He couldn't stay aroused for very long, let alone finish the job.
Almost every time now he has to finish the job by watching porn. It makes me feel horrible because it gives me the feeling he's not attracted to me anymore. In the last two weeks we haven't had sex at all. He's just been begging for blowjobs and wanked on all other occasions.

I really feel horrible and self conscious. I don't know what to do.
I've already put myself on an extreme diet to make myself skinnier for him.
I know, it's crazy... I just really don't know what to do.
I've already tried loads of new things with him but it doesn't seem to work. Is it me?

I hope someone can give me some advice.