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Jan 21, 2009 - 2 comments

Rheumatoid Arthritis

Over the years of my rapidly progressing .... whatever it is... I've gotten to the point where I no longer complain about my aches and pains. No one wants to hear about it and besides, what good is it doing me to complain? But for a minute I need to complain.... For what seems like the last three to four months, I have steadily gotten worse. This whatever I have. I've been diagnosed with everything from Fibromyalgia to Rheumatoid Arthritis to Lupus to Depression. All I know is that my shoulders, elbows, wrists, fingers, hips, knees, ankles, and toes, HURT! They pop and crunch almost constantly! Everytime I go to use the restroom, when I go to sit down, I hear this juicy crunchy sound coming from my knees. I hear it when I attempt to walk up and down stairs. But these pains have gotten to the point to where they are now waking me up in the middle of the night each time I attempt to roll over or change position in my sleep. It's also gotten to the point where it hurts to brush my hair! My shoulders hurt to bend back and brush my hair and then my hands hurt to hold the brush.

Not too long ago I found out that I had calcifications in the bursae of my hips. What causes calcifications? I've tried to look that up on the internet and I cant seem to find anything on it... I've been able to find articles about them in the shoulders, but not in the hips. Does this mean that I am some freak of nature or something?

My hooting and hollering all boils down to the simple fact that I'm tired of hurting. It's not just hurting in general. It wouldn't be so bad if I had a name for this, then I would know what I am fighting against. It's hard to fight against the boogie-men in dark when you don't have a flashlight! I just wish I could find a doctor that would help me find my flashlight!