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Biscuits Are The Devil

Apr 08, 2013 - 0 comments
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Weight Loss

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biscuit

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sweet tooth

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No Will Power



After doing a weight loss Plan online and finding out what Calories I need ECT, I've found that today even though i'm under the maintain weight calories, just about, i've very much over eaten by a good wack of calories to lose the weight. This is slightly bumming, and it's all due to my lack of will power when it comes to bloody biscuits in the house. Even though i moved them down stairs in the hope that everyone else will eat them instead, I still find myself addicted to just having 'one' but several times. I need a way of kicking this habit. I know the best thing is to have them out the house, which I try and do, but I do not buy them myself, I have will power not to buy, no issue. Family get them me, and I am in no spot to refuse food, as we struggle a lot. I need a way around this problem, but don't know how. I need to find the best way to enhance my will power when it comes to sugary treats.  

Food Diary

Bickers

Apr 08, 2013 - 2 comments

I was in a fantastic mood all day, and then come tea time I can't cook because the kitchens in use, this then somehow escalates into an argument, me knowing full well, that I said some blaming things, however it  started because of his irrational side, when his stomachs thinking for him. Now I was fine with his, until the nasty side come out. Lets thing words such as "spong" "retard" "spaka" all rised, and not from my mouth, then when I get upset, I'm then been a baby? This is the most frustrating thing in the world when the firing line is aimed at me and not in the nicest way. Makes me wonder why I don't walk out sometimes. Just had to get that off my chest, and make it clear to myself, I'm not the one been vile, and remind myself I'm worth a lot more if That's what's going to come out his mouth!

Hit the Downer

Apr 07, 2013 - 2 comments
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downers

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pressure

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strains

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Relationships



Since last night the other half has been reflecting his self confidence issues on me. His see's it as a jokey thing that I won't take it to heart, but after so many "fat" and "ugly" 'jokes' it starts to put a downer on things, and even worse it starts to put a resentment there, keeping a firm distance between us, which is not good at all. I know it's his insecurities because of certain behaviors and tell tell signs. To top it off, I'm now worrying about work and money, and frustrated that I haven't had a reply about seeing my aunt. All of this building up and causing pressure. But I've not took it out on anyone so That's a good thing, instead I'm loosing interest in everything.

Mood Tracker

Happy days

Apr 06, 2013 - 0 comments
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happy

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Exercise



Rather the Happy Person the last few days, and to top it off, off the 5htp. Exercise is good I think, keeps me happy, and the fact that I'm exploring different means of exercise, keeps it refreshing and interesting, and something to work towards.
Feeling very good in myself lately so hopefully it keeps up, juts have to maintain the lifestyle, and/or pin point what part of the lifestyle is having such a good effect on my mood.  

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