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dont know what to do

Aug 26, 2008 - 2 comments

ok i have a serious question.i have a six yr old daughter and am pregnant with a second child due in january.she doesnt know about this yet so i am sure the problem is not due to this fact.but the child i am carrying is not from her father but from my current partner.anyways my daughter has taken to lying about some serious issues while at her fathers house and i dont know what to do or how to get her to understand u just cant do that.i just got a phone call tell in me she told them that my boyfriend hits her when he gets mad.this has never happened i assure u.i would never ever allow anything like this to happen and my daughter is very open and usually honest with me if god forbid something had happened without my knowledge she wouldve told me.either whicch way the second i confronted her she began to cry and the story went from him doing it to her thinking he was going to to she doesnt know why she said it at all..has anyone experienced this problem?i fear its going to becmd much worse once she finds out about the baby

boy or girl?

Jul 30, 2008 - 3 comments

oh my god..i am absolutely dying to find out the sex of this baby.its so odd that with my first pregnancy i wanted to know but i wasnt as crazed with finding out as i am now.im having dreams nightly about it..i keep searching different old wives tales to try and figure it out...is anyone else making themselves this crazy???lol..honestly i know it doesnt even matter one way or the other so i dont know why i care so much but i really do just wanna know already.i am 15 weeks today so i know by now u can tell..but my anatomy scan isnt until the end of next month...i need some patience....

stressss.....

Jul 07, 2008 - 1 comments

i am having a miserable day and could really use some cheering up.i just had the worst fight ever with my boyfriend and i dont know what ot do or where to turn.i just dont get it.when things r good they r so good.then once something happens our fights turn to wars.its terrible.and with a baby comign so much worse.i cant even get into things that were said because i know people will think what the hell r u doing with him?but what am i supposed to do now?even if i wanted ot leave which honestly i dont i love him.i am pregnant and already have another child (not his) which is most of the problem.im so out of my mind right now and i got ot go to work.i can barely function...im sorry but i just needed to vent.in all seriousness i think my bf has a bipolar problem and yet he will never admit to needing any sort of help.how am i supposed to get him to do something bout it.we cant keep fighting this way...

only me....

Jun 25, 2008 - 2 comments

so ive been completely stressing over what anyone else would think is something completely retarded but to me is a serious thing..and of course it is something that would only happen to me...this is just the type of luck i have...well my edd is jan 21st 2009...now heres the issue wit that..my ex...my first childs fathers birthday is the 22nd of january..and i know because thats just how things in my life turn out there is like a 900 percent chance i would deliver on that day because as per our court agreement he gets my daughter on his birthday every year..and then my daughter would never be able to be with her new sibling on their birthday..do u think the doc would think i was seriously psycho if i mentioned this to him with the idea that if  i havent delivered by the week prior they could induce me??i know they dont like to unless necessary but isnt this an emergency to anyone but me???just wondering....i know i got plenty od time to stress it...