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Feb 12, 2015 - 11 comments

I'm going in this morning to have an ultrasound done on my side. I'm so hoping they can find out why I'm having this pain. I've had countless blood work done, a CT scan on my stomach area, an upper scope, a cath on my heart and everything is coming back normal. The scope showed severe inflammation and old bile. No wonder I stay sick to my stomach almost all the time. I had my gallbladder removed around 8 years ago and both my GI and primary Dr think this may be a bile dict problem or possible scar tissue, maybe both. If this ultrasound shows nothing my next step will be an MRI on my back. Something my GI recommended just in case this is a back and nerve problem. My primary Dr is treating right now and hanging in there with me. She also prescribes my medication. I know I'm very lucky that I haven't been forced in to pain management, yet. This has been going on for a year with no answers but I plan to keep up the fight and do what I can to get answers. I have the most wonderful daughter and mother, and my husband. If it were not for my daughter and mom, mainly, I don't know if I could have made it through this last year. My daughter is always there for me. She gives me great advice and never judges me for needing pain medication. I hate these new laws! I'm being under medicated like millions of other pain patients. Again, I realize how lucky I am to even be getting treatment considering I do not have a diagnosis yet. This post is not only for me so I can write down my feelings and what I've went through but also for any of my friends here that are struggling too. Being in chronic pain can effect every part of your life. It can cause depression, or make it worse in my case since I already had it. It can make anxiety worse and I've had that also for as long as I can remember. My daughter deals with chronic pain also. She has arthritis and she's only in her 30's. It breaks my heart to see her in pain ,but she is so strong! I could not be more proud of her. Yoga, meditation and exercise are her saving grace most of the time. I know I always have her, my mom and my husband by my side. I'm so grateful for that. I hope this morning goes well. I want and need answers but at the same time I'm also afraid of those answers. My daughter always tells me that knowledge is power. She is so right!

My daughter

Dec 30, 2008 - 28 comments

My daughter Tara

I have the best daughter in the world. I've been so sick with the flu that I have'nt been able to do anything around the house for days. She came out tonight to visit and ended up changing my bed, cleaning the kitchen, doing some laundry and she washed the dishes. She has a busy schedule and I so appreciate her coming here to take care of my house. Thank you so much my baby girl. I know to you it's no big deal at all, but to me it means so much. Mama loves you very much.