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Almost there

Nov 22, 2008 - 0 comments

I can't wait until this tracker says 365.  I know it is just numbers, but it sure is going to be great

So Far, So Good

Oct 27, 2008 - 0 comments

Well, I am doing well with the abscessed tooth.  I have been on the antibiotic and haven't taken anything stronger than advil.  It makes me feel so good to hear my husband tell me he is proud that I haven't asked him for any.  

I am still kinda afraid that for some reason this problem with my kidney is going to end up being drug related.  Whether it is or not, I still feel stronger about staying away from the pills.  I have been taking the new blood pressure meds, Toprol XL.  I have never had to take a blood pressure med twice a day, but I have been doing this one without missing a dose.  Tomorrow when I meet with the specialist, I am going to have to tell him that my heart rate is still really rapid.  It usually runs anywhere from 110-120.  That is even at rest.  I am also having some headaches with it, but I read that that is one of the side effects.  I hate it because the headaches are what made me realize I was having problems.  I really don't know what will come next, but I am ready to face it head on and get it straightened out.

My doctor is an ***

Oct 06, 2008 - 0 comments

As most of you know, I have had problems with headaches and my blood pressure for the past 2 weeks.  My blood pressure shot up to stroke level and my doctor changed my meds and gave me 2 additional b/p meds to take.  These meds made my b/p bottom out. I mean BOTTOM OUT.  For 2 days it was 70/40 and my pulse was less that 40.  I have gone to him everyday for the past week and I have told him everyday that I am having headaches and the imitrex doesn't help.  I have not asked for anything for the headaches.  He gives me something for my b/p to go down, then he gives me something to raise it.  This can't be good on my body.  After my renal scan this morning, my head was hurting so bad that I was throwing up and couldn't keep anything down.  My husband called him and asked him if I could come and get a shot or if he could see me and prescribe something.  He said "NO, not with her history."  My hubby went nuts and told the doctor he was full of ****, he was changing all these meds, and wouldn't see me to give me something for the repercussions of the chaning of the meds.  He told my hubby for me to just tough it out until we get the results of the scan Tuesday or Wednesday.  That really ticked my hubby off, he said so when we get the results that is miracuouly going to make the headaches stop?

What makes me so mad is that I have done everything right.  I told the doctors that I wouldn't ask for or take anything without my husband knowing or giving it to me himself.  I have used the one doctor in the past 9 months, and only one pharmacy.  Sometimes I wonder if it even pays to get clean?  People like this a$$ won't let you forget your past no matter what you do.

I know I am an addict, but I have been nothing but responsible with my sobriety since January 08 and it makes me so mad when I am being totally honest with people and they still look down on me.


People Addicted to Attention

Sep 28, 2008 - 0 comments

Have you guys noticed the people  who say or do anything for attention?  I watch this on a daily basis in high school, but I have witnessed this in adults more than teenagers lately.  What is with theses people who still have to do outrageous things to get attention drawn on themselves.  

Poor Pathetic People