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Depressed and Frustrated!!!!!!!!

Jul 28, 2008 - 14 comments

I went to the doc Monday, spent $500 on the visit and lab work since I do not have insurance.  I did not have the money but instead of paying a note, I went ahead and had the tests done just to try and find out what was wrong.  EVERYTHING came back fine.....I'm normal.  So why do I not feel normal???  My pain level is through the roof, I can't sleep for days on end and when I can sleep I only sleep for a few hours and then I'm up again!  My muscles ache, my joints ache but I'm normal for everything.  Imagine that.  So now what?  I really WANT something, anything to be wrong with me at this point.  
I asked for my pain meds to be uped or give me a different kind, we'll see what he says about that.
I'm going to have to go to Charity Hospital until I can get my medicaide approved, maybe they will look a little harder into what is wrong with me!!  I'm so sick of being told everything is fine when I know there is something wrong with me.  
This is just so frustrating.  I want to go back to work but how can I?  
I have so much to do today and all I want to do is lay in the bed.  At least my oldest son is home now and can drive me.  Lord knows the last thing I need is to pass out while driving and be sued because I crashed into someone because I'm normal.

A wonderful site to visit for all

Jul 24, 2008 - 8 comments

When I first started having chronic vaginal bacterial infections I started researching. The doctors couldn't help me, all of the antibiotics were making me sick so I set out to find a cure on my own.  I did eventually find something to help myself.  
I tried Donna and Kevin's method for a short while except for their way of living.  I juiced and amazingly my IBS and ANY stomach problems totally went away.  Check out their site.  If you want to know more about juicing and how I cured my IBS just contact me, I will let you know the ingredients I used.  It was amazing.  It got to be too costly for me and I had to quit.  I really wish I could get started again.  
Kevin and Donna are no longer maintaining their site but there is still lots of useful information there.
For now here is the site  http://earthstar.newlibertyvillage.com/

Finally slept

Jul 10, 2008 - 3 comments

I finally slept after almost two weeks of sleeping 3 to 4 hours a day and sometimes staying awake for over 24 hours.  I went to sleep around 3 yesterday and woke up at 3 this morning.  Oh, how nice it was....  There is ALMOST nothing worse than being sooooo tired, climbing in your bed, turning the tv and lights off, adjusting your pillows, getting in your comfy spot and waiting.  Trying to keep your eyes closed, then looking up at the ceiling....amazing how your eyes can adjust when it is pitch black.  I hope tonight will be another good night of sleep!!!!  if not, at least I had last night

New Pain

Jul 07, 2008 - 1 comments

With my FM I have had pain in my shoulder joints, my hips, back, the back of my neck, hands, fingers, severe burning in my muscles but I never had pain in my knees or feet.  Well, low and behold, my knees are killing me.  The pain is shooting from my back down my thighs, into my knees and into my shins.  I'm thankful it is  not in my feet yet.  I've doubled the dose of my pain meds and I'm getting NO relief.