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This Place Is A Prison

May 27, 2013 - 2 comments

This song is an apt description of addiction. 'This Place Is A Prison' by The Postal Service


This place is a prison
These people aren't your friends
Inhaling thrills through 20 dollar bills
And the tumblers are drained and then flooded again

There's guards at the ramps armed to the teeth
And you can case the grounds
From the Cascades to Puget Sound
But you are not permitted to leave

I know that it's not a party
If it happens every night
Pretending there's glamor and candelabra
When you're drinking by candlelight

What does it take to get a drink in this place?
What does it take, how long must I wait?
What does it take to get a drink in this place?
What does it take, how long must I wait?

How long must I wait?

Stuck

May 12, 2013 - 2 comments

For the past few days I have been suffering from what I can only call a crisis of the soul. I feel so stuck and stagnant in my life. I feel "trapped" in this truck, in  my relationship, everything really. I know that I am probably suffering from some depression, and that my situation ( being in a semi truck all the time) is not helping matters. It is so hard to be in such close quarters with another human being day in and day out. It is so hard being stuck with only my thoughts for hours on in daily. I look to this forum for the support and encouragement that I am unable to get from anyone else in my life. I am so thankful to have found this site and all of the wonderful people on it. I guess that I have a lot of soul searching to do. It really helps to just voice these thoughts that have been troubling me.