Jul 08, 2008
I havent answered, because my husband and i got in the worst fight verbally we have had since my problems all began. my husband was half the way out the door, im talking he got dressed, put shorts, tee shirt on put his wllt in his pckt and had his keys in his hand, as im chasing him, begging him not to leave. he usually goes to and is in bed by 7pmish, because he goes to work early, allways have been that way, he says its because of the time he spent in the navy on the carrier USS Nimitz, and that during and since he has learned to live on little sleep and to hear every noise. the night of the fight, i was laying in bed on my side because of amazingly, & i NEVER had this symptom, but when there are storm fronts moving in & out of the area since i have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia, i get pain symptoms when there are large or constant changes in the barometric scale, that my TMJ flared up, to the point i wanted to cry. i had taken all my meds that i could and the one for break thru pain, and it wasnt helping, so i was laying on a heating pad and holding it around the back of my head and laying facing the window, i heard him come in the room, and he just shook his head and walked away from me with the facial expression, and i said "what" before he walked away, and he didnt answer me just shook his head and wlked away, so i chased him down, (hindsite being what it is, i should have let it go), but i didnt, i went after him, he was already back in bed, and and asked him what was wrong, well BIG mistake, he started verbally throwing everything in my face (literal sense, NOT real or physical)
about the money, weve had to refinance the house to pay off the credit card, the rest of the bills, we are really struggling to pay, we have exhaused all our savings, trying to treat me, and get the "right" care. well this all started back in July of 06, when we bought & moved into a brnd new home outside Augusta georgia, south of Augusta to a relatively small town called hephzibah, and i got into a car accident and totaled my car, a 1995 4dr geo prism, which was in good condition for its age. well i got out of the car, walked around the car to the grass sat down curled my arms around my legs and just started rocking. my mind had shut down, i had run into a lincoln towne car, which stopped up quickly when the car in front of her (which i never saw, i only saw the lincoln towne car) had slammed its breaks and then took off merging into the traffic on that road, and i saw the lincoln towne car moving when i looked up and assumed it had continued and merged into trafiic, i took my eyes off her to look back further downe the road of oncoming traffic on the road we both were trying to get onto from another highway. looked up and by that time it was too late, i slammed my brakes on, but they hesitated for a second and that second meant the difference between hitting her at what i would call a slow speed, of 30 mpg, or slower, we were merging onto one highway from another, by and exit and on ramp with NO merging area, so you have to be ready to go, and you cant hesitate, or this is what happens, though it was all caused by a car long gone, that had basically started the chain reaction that led back to me as the last chair around.
well this second accident coupled with another car accident in which i was a passenger in my own car, being driven by my husband, we were t-boned, making an illegal left turn, across several lanes of oncoming traffic, to get to the traffic moving in the direction we wanted to go. i was extricated from my car and have NO memories of the accident even happening, scared to dth when i woke up in a hosp bed, in a major hospital. i walked away from that accident with what they call a subdural hematoma, 2 big wrds meaning a blood clot on my brain. no big deal, i had to have cat scans & mris monthly for the next six months to a year, fllwd by appts w/my primary care & neurology for a year. the "blood clot" resolved on its own. after learning how to walk, talk, bathe, dress, eat,etc.... they called it some fancy name i dont remember, but that word just meant i had to go thu neuro-muscular retraining. like a baby learning everything going on, accept that it only took a little therapy and then slowly as i touched things & held them and did the motion i wld do with it, slowly by brain, re-taught itself how to do everything. well to make a long story short, the 1st accident was like a chain being let lose, the blood clot resolved itself with no help over the next 6 mnths to a year, and i was fine and went about my life as if nothing had happened. my brain just started remembering everything. and that was that, i had other medical problems that some of them minor might have started after the accident and some had started before, but got a little worse, but nothing to be concerned about.
life was good and fine and dandy till we moved down here and i had the 2nd accident and it, what did they say?? it was like light bulb going on or off, it just woke everything up and what seemed like a little case of whip lash, turned into chronic pain, which became unrelenting, and never stopping. i found myself at every possible doctor i could to , one of which was an appt wih a local neurologist, he found and diagnosed the fibro, , he doesnt treat the fibro, but he knew enough to give me the right medication, that treated both the nerve pain and the fibro & gave me a referral to go see a rheumatologist, she doesnt monitor pain meds, especially on a long term basis.gave me a referral to go to see pain spec to cover your meds. we did, two did procedures that only made the fibro worse, and the others either did what the other two did. they treat using procedures, therapy, but not pain med monitoring, a few others i had and wrked with for wks or mnths, and others i was dismissed/kicked out of the program due to "violations" of the contract my husband and i signed with them. the reasons for the dismissals were a matter of wording interpretation and fine print that we should have read, along the way, they might have written a script of a pain med, and then others either did nothing or made changes to it, incr. something or decreased something, or recommended this or that, and because i would come back and tell them i cldnt take the drug they wanted, because it either wasnt covered, or was, at the highest percentage or copay, give me an alternative, even now somethings are still not right, im still in alot of pain, tired all the time, slpng during the day, instead of at night, when i can sleep.
we have exhausted all possibilites with all the doctors we have seen, none of them will go to the next step beyond tp injections or whatever they call the other injections, where they go in and put the numbing medication right on the spot causing the pain. so we have made an appt with the fibro and fatgue center in atlanta , its i know marietta, hoping they can help me. well thats all for now, gttng too tired of all the typing,, but that basically tells you how i got to where i am today.
LORTAB DETOX, MORPHINE DETOX, LESS THAN 2 YRS ON DRUGS, DETOX IN LESS THAN 10 DAYS, fibromyalgia, Chronic Pain, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, muscle relaxant, lyrica