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When your young By; Three Doors Down!

Aug 29, 2013 - 0 comments

So far away from knowing where I am going
I am trying hard to find out who I am
They all say that I don't know what I am doing
I say they don't hardly understand

Why can't they remember
What I will never forget?
How these dreams can come undone
When you're young

You give what you give 'cause they make you
Trapped inside a place that won't take you
And they want you to be what they make you
It's already over and done when you're young

Everything seems perfect, everything's okay
It will all get better now
At least that's what they say
But I don't see it coming

You give what you give 'cause they make you
Trapped inside a place that won't take you
And they want you to be what they make you
It's already over and done when you're young

Days never seemed longer
They say it's better this way
I hope one day I am stronger than I feel
And I hope that it feels different than today


You give what you give 'cause they make you
Trapped inside a place that won't take you
And they want you to be what they make you
It's already over and done, it's already over and done
It's already over and done when you're young

Why can't they remember
What I will never forget?
How these dreams can come undone
When you're young


Read more: 3 Doors Down - When You're Young Lyrics | MetroLyrics

"Next to me".....by, Emilie Sande

Aug 21, 2013 - 0 comments

Our higher power!

You won’t find him drinking under tables
Rolling dice or staying out 'til 3
You won’t ever find him being unfaithful
You will find him, you'll find him next to me
You won’t find him tryna chase the devil
For money, fame, for power out of greed
You won’t ever find him where the rest go
You will find him, you'll find him next to me

Next to me - wooh hooo
Next to me - wooh hooo
Next to me - wooh hooo
You will find him, you’ll find him next to me

When the money's spent and all my friends have vanished
And I can’t seem to find no help or love for free
I know there’s no need for me to panic
Cos I’ll find him, I’ll find him next to me

When the skies are grey and all the doors are closing
And the rising pressure makes it hard to breathe
When all I need's a hand to stop the tears from falling
I will find him, I'll find him next to me

Next to me - wooh hooo
Next to me - wooh hooo
Next to me - wooh hooo
You will find him, you’ll find him next to me

When the end has come and buildings falling down fast
When we've spoilt the land and dried up all the sea
When everyone has lost their heads around us
You will find him, you’ll find him next to me

Next to me - wooh hooo
Next to me - wooh hooo
Next to me - wooh hooo
You will find him, you’ll find him next to me

Next to me - wooh hooo
Next to me - wooh hooo
Next to me - wooh hooo
You will find him, you’ll find him next to me

Breathe just breathe!

Aug 18, 2013 - 5 comments

My today's way of Sharing....made easy!


She's fine, most of the time
She takes her days with a smile
She moves like a dancer in lights
Spinning around to the sound
Sometimes she falls down

Breathe, just breathe
Take the world off your shoulders
And put it on me
Breathe, just breathe
Let the life that you live
Be all that you need

She likes New York at night
She dreams of running away
Shine on, bright like the sun
When even the sky turns gray
I need you to hear me say
I need you to hear me say

Breathe, just breathe
Take the world off your shoulders
And put it on me
Breathe, just breathe
Let the life that you live
Be all that you need

Let go of the fear
Let go of the doubt
Let go of the ones
Who to try to put you down
You're gonna be fine
Don't hold it inside
If you hurt right now
Then let it all come out

Breathe, just breathe
Take the world off your shoulders
And put it on me
Breathe, just breathe
Let the life that you live
Be all that you need

Breathe, just breathe
Take the world off your shoulders
And put it on me
Breathe, just breathe
Let the life that you can
Be all that you need

By; Ryan Star! Love him! :)


The devil & Cold "November rain"....in August "WOW!"

Aug 12, 2013 - 0 comments

Just have to get this in black & white before I lose it!  I cant believe the lengths a mistake from my past will go to haunt me....using a song I used to like...not so much now! lol He's using all he can against me! Thinking now that I'm living again and alright as he puts it...I can be a better wife...OMG! Divorce means ITS OVER....he cant get it...I wonder just how his ego got so out of wack...and then I think...I married this maniac! Whats that say about me? But, Im in a new place with new and special things that I enjoy for once! I will NOT allow him to manipulate me another second...1000 text...1000 voicemails & every song I've ever loved will NOT be my undoing! When will he get it...why does he have to invade my world over & over and just how the hell am I gonna stop him?
This is a question I've asked more times over the past few years that I can barely type it...must less say it aloud! If I had a dime for everytime I thought it asked it or dreamed about it I'd be in Bora Bora right now! SO...what to do?Change my number...my email...move from my home town...avoid everyone and any place he might be? I mean why should I have to...why should I have to think about this another minute! And then....my new brain kicks in...its called consequences! Consequences of my own choices to allow his false manhood and my belief in LOVE to fool me! Along with this came my addiction! I REFUSE to blame him...or the messed up power struggling entitled manipulation he held me by for years! I REFUSE! The way he has of making it all about me used to make me think it was... but the fact is I fell out love and into unhappiness when I lost myself...not realizing how manipulative he was...he knows this and yet he has no respect for my decisions...so! That said  I defineitly REFUSE to give him any credit he now seems to thing he deserves...for my recovery and whats followed so by allowing this to bother me like I am...he's still managing to hold some power! This is my vow...I'll not change a thing! and I will find a way to deal with him...in my new reality! By being the new me! And enjoying everyone and everything Ive found since becoming me again!
Thanks for the power pleasing joy of knowing I can handle this FINALLY! God send him a new mate....please! lol ;)