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Busy Busy Day

Oct 28, 2009 - 0 comments
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Today is a day I would rather have as a "down" day as I really feel I need the rest.  However, there are urgent errands and financial matters demanding attention ... so ... onward and upward!

Tomorrow .. I will slow down a bit and get an extra nap ... and do something fun for me ... like doing my nails and writing a blog article.  Yes, I am going back to writing ... I enjoy it!

Ranae's Positive Outlook Diary

LOVE & Stumbling Blocks

Oct 27, 2009 - 0 comments
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Funny how once you identify the stumbling blocks, it is easier to continue your journey.  However, you must diligently be willing to do some self searching as to "what" and "why" you are continuing a negative behavior.

The friends here on MedHelp have been crucial in my support and recovery!  While I had unlocked many other obstacles myself, I knew three remained that I did not have the key to.

1.  Why did I never get angry?

2.  Why was I stuck between 199-210 lbs for a year?  What and where did this binging and purging come from?

3.  Why didn't I like myself underneath or treat myself well when I thought I was a nice person and deserved to be treated well?

These last three were opened with the loving and caring support of a friend (psychologist) and a therapist and crisis team at the hospital.

I understand now the events in my life that shaped these behaviors and that I developed those behaviors as survival mechanisms, even though they were unhealthy.  Understanding them has given me the key to unlock them, work through them in a positive manner, and continue on my journey.

Life is wonderful and the tough times help us grow in understanding and spirit ... they are not there to trip us up or to make us feel bad ... but to point us to a way to improve our lives and realize something is wrong that if we care enough to do the hard work and correct it ... we emerge in a metamorphosis.  

I am forever changed and am most grateful.  I sincerely thank all of you ... and my faith is renewed and stronger than ever.  

LOVE to all of you .. it is a powerful tool and needed by all!  Don't settle for less .. be all that you were meant to be!!!  I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!!!!!



Ranae's Weight Tracker

An Even Day

Oct 26, 2009 - 0 comments

Well, won't lose today, but shouldn't gain unless from salt.  Ate out with Uncle Bobby who I haven't seen in sooooo many years.  Miss him and shared slides from Grandma from 1960's!   Took dinner to sick cousin and took a nap .. didn't sleep well last night ... not sure why.

Better choices on tap for tomorrow ... making homemade beef and barley soup.

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Have to Start Somewhere! :)

Oct 25, 2009 - 0 comments
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When you stumble and fall or are fighting health and/or emotional issues, we stumble and fall .. we are human.  We have to summon those who can help us and get the care we need and then come back and pick up where we left off.  

I am feeling better emotionally and physically and have been taking care of myself; my health demanded it.  I am now functioning better and am happy .. have uncovered some long forgotten feelings, acknowledged them and worked through them ... and like the other part of my journey I am continuing to learn and move forward.

Here I am ... back with with what I know works .. doing a food diary, and using my trackers to help me and my other supportive friends keep me on my journey.  I will be the best me I can be and honor the body the Good Lord has entrusted to me.

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