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Aug 18, 2008 - 0 comments








Age 11, molested by a man named Eric Taylor. Sexually abused.

Eric came into my life as a friend and confidant. Someone I could trust. He treated me as though I was something special. Over the course of a few weeks he broke me down into a sexual puppet. For 2 summers he used me and I had no idea. It wasn't until DARE in school that I realized what had happened. My parents were devistated and I was left damaged.

Damaged=Short Temper, No Patients, Masturbation(3-8 times a day), not a single functional relationship with anyone outside my family. Depression, Constant feeling of being utterly Alone.

Throughout school I fought with others, was expelled, suspened,
I had a short stay at a clinic for my behavior problems but it hasn't helped. I was therapists for as long as my parents could afford it. They can't now, nor can I. I'm seeking help now more han ever yet so far it's been out of reach. Everyone I've talked to brush me off or treat me as though I'm just trying to get attention.


Aug 18, 2008 - 1 comments






I'm up and down all the time and I can't find the center. I try to be what people want me to be because I can't find within myself who I am or who I want me to be. I try to succeed but every effort I make is thwarted by my own shortcomings or the harsh realities of life. I try to keep fighting but so far every fight has left me more broken and bruised than when I started.