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worst day of my life

Oct 19, 2013 - 0 comments

I delivered my baby at 22 weeks yesterday october 18,2013 at 2:55 pm to a baby boy.
He died shortly after he came into this world.
Doctors and specialists pushed us into being induced to end our pregnancy because the defects he had weren't compatible with life :(
I never knew gender until I asked way after they rolled him out of the room in the incubator covered by a sheet.
I never held him or saw him.

MORE bad news

Oct 14, 2013 - 0 comments

The baby has not only a  diaphragmatic hernia but a Hypoplastic left heart syndrome.
They don't think the baby will make it past a newborn stage if we continue our pregnancy.
We are leaning towards termination.

10/10/13 (20w6day sonogram)

Oct 10, 2013 - 0 comments

The baby has a hernia that  pushed his or her intestine up near the lungs.
The baby lungs and heart isn't as big as it should be.
I was told I'm high risk pregnancy.
I'm waiting to get a call from the specialist.
I'm trying to be positive and strong.

10/4/13 update

Oct 04, 2013 - 0 comments




My heart hurts so bad from our eeg appointment.
I had to keep her awake without a nap until our cab got us to the hospital.
I then had to hold her crying and turning red to get wired up and then had to cuddle her to sleep and wait an hour for them to tell me that the doctor will call me soon with results. I'm jump every time my phone rings now.