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Disappointing Friends Here

Sep 15, 2013 - 1 comments



recovery is individual

I have something on my mind, so I just want to say it. Yesterday I saw something that made me feel really sad. A person was on here who had to adjust their step down routine, and they were begging for forgiveness from their friends here because they didn't want to disappoint friends here. And one friend came along and pretty much said this person was lying about how they felt and didn't want to detox and in general acted that yes, they were disappoibnted.

I had a friend who committed suicide because of something like that. Every one has their way of getting through and no everyone's body chemistry is NOT the same. I tried going cold turkey off a drug that plainly told me in the literature not to stop abruptly. I tried it anyway, didn't make it. I am never going to apologize for calling a doctor, minimizing a dose of my tramadol until I can get to a specialist and finding my correct way to step down. I am GLAD for people who made it through cold turkey. I did do it off Norco. I can't off this drug. I accept it and am moving on.

Just wanted to get that off my chest. If anybody said to me what I saw said to that poor girl yesterday, there'd be an unfriend so fast their head would spin.

Pain Management & Stepping Down

Sep 14, 2013 - 0 comments

pain managemnt


stepping down off tramadol

Yesterday there was a return of a lot of pain and later in the morning some violent tremors. Doctor has referred me to pain management in Sacramento. I will be stepped down slowly and try to find an alternative to the pills.

So now I am taking only three a day -- down from six -- to take the edge off. I am hoping that this will somewhat reduce temptation to cheat when I step down. I can take OTC pain relievers with them.

Bothers me I couldn't handle the c/t but the instructions with my bottles did say not to so I'm not going to beat myself up. I'm going to get through this b.s. and get off the damn things. Praying pain management is GOOD

Sixth Day Off the Stuff

Sep 13, 2013 - 0 comments

tramadol withdrawal

Woke up aching and discouraged. I did have six and a half hours sleep (popped Benadryl) but with vivid dreams which made me wake up disoriented. Was achy and my back & neck pain are at an all time high. Trying to stick to the aspirin and Tylenol. . .but my temptation to get my trams is strong right now. Yesterday I had several "good" hours where I was low energy but didn't hurt, so I am hoping for some today, it keeps my hopes up.

I think right now that it's only coming to this forum that keeps me from taking the pills. I think people who taper have a lot more willpower than I do.

Fifth Day Off Tramodol

Sep 12, 2013 - 2 comments

tramadol withdrawal

Woke up with sweats and sheets all over the place -- and a humongous headache with sensitivity to light. Tylenol didn't work, so I got up and got some soda crackers so I could take a 500 mg fizzy alka seltzer aspirin. So headache is better.

Chills again. These symptoms come and go so much that I'm afraid to say anytime I feel better. . .don't want anyone getting the wrong idea of what day they'll feel less ill.

I have to feed my birds and do dishes. I really, really do not feel like it.