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Insomnia, crowded in

Feb 16, 2013 - 0 comments

Didn't get to sleep until 4am when I took Restoril. Had already taken my usual Seroquel 600 Neurontin Zonisamide which usually makes me sleepy, topped that with 1/2 Xanax, nothing, so tried a whole one, nothing. should've done an elephant in but my brain would NOT rest and let me relax enough to sleep. My brain feels crowded in by all of the ideas, thoughts, to do lists, realizations, etc. The house feels just as crowded, so does my body. The best part of my day was going to my room to get ready & go to bed. 1 person around me is 1 too many.

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Not as irritable

Feb 13, 2013 - 0 comments

but frustrated worried and upset that I can't find my keys with the shelter key on it that they trusted me with

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Getting tired

Feb 10, 2013 - 0 comments

of faking that I'm not completely andutterly apathetic about most everything; the only thing I feel other than apathy is irritability. I either don't feel I care or I'm having a tantrum over it.

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Min Pin put to sleep

Feb 08, 2013 - 0 comments

About a month ago. Not felt the brunt of it til now. I was her world. She followed me everywhere. I miss her little feet behind me, I miss her at the foot of my bed, I miss her gazing at me lovingly. Seamus is doing his best to keep me from being sad, but he's Shamie, not Penny.
Angry because I'm not on the board so I don't know what the hell goes on there, but two of my favorite people resigned, making the animal shelter a sad place rather than a fun place.

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