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A new dog in my world ....!!

Dec 29, 2011 - 0 comments

We didnt plan on getting a new dog just yet but I had a little talk with God and asked him to look out for me and send me a sign..and a couple days before Christmas and I was looking at petfinder and the first pic to show up was a little Cavalier King Charles Spaniel, a rescue dog.  She had been part of a puppy mill, mistreated & abused.  They fixed her up and since she was doing so well put her up for adoption...she could only guess at her age, between 5-8 yrs old.  They had to pull all but 4 teeth so without teeth its hard to tell.

She is a miracle !!  I have wanted a Cav.King Charles Spaniel for a very long time, but they are so expensive that I stopped thinking about it...it hurt my heart otherwise.  And she is the best companion dog in the world...she is quiet, loving, a big-time lap dog.  She is already potty trained too...does not beg for food. And she sleeps on my bed with me.  I love her so much !

She is terrified of the stairs going to the downstairs part of the house....must be something else from her horrifying past, maybe they kept them in a basement or something that had down stairs.  Other than that she is changing every day by leaps and bounds.



Dec.8, here we go again...

Dec 08, 2011 - 2 comments

cont.

"My headaches are all the time and they keep me from thinking clear, they are just constant and sometimes they are worse than others...sometimes a 10 and other times somewhere in between...they are hard to describe.  The vidodin worked for a long time actually.  My eyes hurt too, the headaches are right behind my eyes also."

Just want to run this by you....we have had a friend visiting this week.  Now we usually get along but I realized that It was fun when I was feeling really good for that weeks.

Yesterday I had a terrific headache and had pain in my neck...I felt awful all day.  I woke up this morning feeling so much better but I only spent maybe an hour around her this morning and my anxiety level was going through 'my' roof, and my headaches and neck pain started in again.

I can't always connect the dots but I was able to do it this time.  I am in my room while they are off doing something, thank God !!    I like her but I can't stand her.

She is very loud, talks a lot and disagrees with everything.....which didnt bother me when I was feeling better....but I am nuts now.  She does go home today so I can take care of myself.  I have been forgetting my meds and my routine too. I feel bad saying that because I really care for her.

Yes, I am in all-kinds-of-hurt type happiness.

I am not one to do journals.... I forget them, lose them, delete them, its very frustrating so I tend to stop for a long time, and then try i again only to reach the same results.

I am going to see what tomorrow brings plus I may try a journal again..lol,  I do feel different about it now, like i am doing it because I want to, not because I need to. This also interests me a lot.  Guess my brain reached out and finally caught something..lol..as long it doesn't let go.

Anyway, I have been alone now for about an hour, just me and my dog, Molly. So I am calming down a little... and, I like it like this!!!

So I am paying attention..

hugs, meg




I give up on journals

Feb 28, 2011 - 0 comments

I just keep forgetting to do it...and that won't help me

Feb 11 ...5:30

Feb 20, 2011 - 0 comments

I had no idea when I woke up today that my day would go like this but it is always so unpredictable....

I am so tired, I get up and do somehing and run out of gas and have to sit down and I am so depressed and lonely....have no idea what brought this on,  nothing was different today.  Its tough, i could do things if I were not so always feeling so bad.  

I think I will just keep a record on here.