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The Trouble with Not Smoking...

Jan 09, 2014 - 1 comments
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writing

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Art

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quitting smoking

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hyperactive

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ADHD

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Adult ADHD



...is that I can't sit still! I am a writer and artist and I find it really, really, REALLY hard, if I do not have a cigarette, to just sit the **** down and do some work. If I do not have a cigarette in hand I'm like the Energizer Bunny on meth, or cocaine, or something, I am just all over the place and I just keep going and going doing ridiculous ******** like cleaning my house, or, I don't know, being a productive member of society. It's really difficult to be a lazy ******* writer who just wants to be a bum and sit around writing things all day. Instead, I want to run a marathon and organize my sock drawer.

Quitting Smoking (Again)

Jan 09, 2014 - 0 comments
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quitting smoking

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Chronic bronchitis

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trouble breathing



On Wednesday I had to go to the hospital because I was having trouble breathing and feeling dizzy as a result. I was diagnosed with chronic bronchitis and pretty much told to quit smoking or die. It's easy to ignore one's own speculation that you'd better quit smoking, or you will die, but when a doctor tells you that it's a bit scary. I know he was making a big deal and I'm not about to just keel over and die in the next day or two, but still. Also they made me breathe this industrial-sized inhaler for a "breathing treatment" and it tasted nasty. I was prescribed an inhaler. I feel like one of those little lame asthmatic kids nobody likes, the ones with the coke-bottle-thick glasses and braces and their inhaler, and they weigh like a million pounds, and have zits, and talk about Thtar Warth.