All Journal Entries Journals
Sort By:  

too much too soon?

May 18, 2009 - 0 comments
Tags:

Mourning

,

confused

,

guilt



Well, I feel pretty good, but very stressed.  Yesterday I went to the breeder to see if I could get my money back and she offered me another puppy instead.  I not even over the mourning of my loss and here I am adopting another puppy!  Well in a way I am happier, but I am still sad...so I don't know what I really do feel.  May be confused and guilty???

Mood Tracker

If things could get worse they will

May 16, 2009 - 0 comments
Tags:

PMS

,

Mourning

,

Depression

,

Anxiety

,

hysterectomy



Man I feel like ****.  I lost my best friend...my dog.  He was only 1 year and 2 months old...passed away of liver problems.  I had to bury him today.  I hate life so much!  I have severe PMS again. and I just found out that I need a hysterectomy, because of a tumor.  It feels like anxiety, depression, and loneliness will destroy me.  I don't think things could get any worse!!!!!

Mood Tracker

Already?

May 14, 2009 - 0 comments
Tags:

Peri-menopause

,

Dr suggested hysterectomy

,

pain in abdomen

,

PMS



I went to have a pelvic exam done and my OBGYN says it is like I am 4 months pregnant.  I had some tests done and I have a grapefruit size tumor in my uterus. I need to have a hysterectomy done and I am having pain in my abdomen daily.  But this won't help with my messed up hormones.  I am upset that hormonal treatments just make my pre-menopausal days worse.

Menstrual Cycle Tracker

grumpy, grouchy

Apr 29, 2009 - 0 comments
Tags:

cramps

,

feelings

,

low heart rate



Just feeling more grumpy and grouchy.  Pulse lower than normal and very tired.  Bleeding is light with no clots.  Cramps are quite a bit though.

Menstrual Cycle Tracker