Yesterday had group, and a very long day. Was sad and depressed through all my classes. Stared at the ground and didn't talk in group. I said that I was depressed, but that was about it. Answered a few little questions, but no one else in there is ever depressed so they kind of backed away.
I left group and was heading to my last class of the day. My knee injury from two weeks ago returned, as I fell off my skateboard trying to ride it 'cool'. I felt this pop in my knee and immediately knew the pain. This time, it hurt much much more. Thank goodness I had kept an emergency hydrocodone in my bookbag, leftover from last time. I took that and the three ibuprofen I had. Had to text around 4-5 people and sit in the cold as it started to sprinkle a little a bit. Strangers kept asking if I was okay, as I sat on the edge of the parking lot my ex-girlfriend was going to pick me up in. About 20 minutes later, she took me home. She was very nice, and took care of me. We watched some internet tv for a while. My knee was in quite a bit of pain, but icing it helped a bit. I sent her to CVS and Wallgreens looking to get me a pair of cheap crutches, but they both cost around $50 a pair.
Today, after sleeping with my leg slightly crooked in several awkward positions, I woke up at 6 to finish my homework. My teacher at least agreed I could send that in digitally. My leg hurts incredibly. This time, I can barely bend it 5 degrees without a lot of pain. When the ibuprofen is peaking (im taking 800mg every 4 hours or so), the pain is around a 7-8 most of the time. When I move it, it's at a 9. My student health center has crutches that I can get for free. Unfortunately, they do not have appointments. I really think I need a prescription for pain medicines again. I was using them responsibly this last time, and definitely notice I didn't feel any sort of particular high other than in class I took a half, then a whole for my pinched nerve problem I was experiencing a couple of weeks ago. Even then, it wasn't substantial. I just felt sleepy. So anyway, I really want to just take ibuprofen, but I think I will end up taking more doses than 4 in a 24 hour period. I think I'm going to need to take 4 to go to sleep, and probably 4 more when I wake up in the middle of the night in pain (as I did last night). So, they didn't have any appointments, and I'm stuck sitting here on my bed. Even on one foot, I can't stand up. The blood rushes to my knee, which already looks more swollen than yesterday. It was immediately more swollen than last time, so I'm guessing it suffered a lot more shock this time.
There is my glorious knee last night.
I was supposed to meet up for a group practice video presentation last night. Told them I couldn't make it, they didn't really understand how serious it was. I emailed my teacher and said I would try to youtube my part. Right now, I think I can't even sit up. I definitely can't get over to the TV to do pointing and whatever at it. So, it's supposed to snow tomorrow. I'm praying it does. I have a big accounting test that I have not studied for tomorrow, and know the knee is going to make that situation horrible. But yeah, I think even with crutches it is going to be excruciating to move around with this knee. I can't bend it or extend it at all without a ton of pain. This ***** already, and I can't even get anything to eat right now either. So now, I'm hungry. I really need someone to take care of me, but I don't want to ask. My ex said she could come help me, but I feel like she did so much yesterday. My other friend who offered has 3 tests this week. And I notified my sister, telling her to pass the word on to my mother. They know how I hurt my knee the first time (skateboarding), and it is so embarrassing that this is why it happened again. I feel like I'm in really deep.