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reducing celexa

May 15, 2014 - 0 comments

reducing celexa from 40 mg to 30 mg
hopefully this will help with insomnia

abandonment issues

May 13, 2014 - 0 comments

i thought my friend was mad at me and suddenly hated me (with no apparent reason) and that the friendship was over, but it turned out she wasn't mad at all.

it's very confusing to have such distorted views on interpersonal relationships.


May 11, 2014 - 0 comments

i feel very bad and sad and alone. i think i made one of my best friends hate me. i don't know what i did, but she hasn't been talking to me lately and i'm so sure i ruined the friendship, and i'm so ashamed of myself.

i felt nervous but okay during the day, but tonight hasn't been good. i don't know if it's just a mood swing or if i really messed up. i couldn't stop crying and wanting to die. i went for a long walk and it tired me out too much to do anything bad, but i still feel hopeless.

tomorrow i'll probably feel different again.

i feel like i have no control over my emotions.


May 10, 2014 - 0 comments

i think my friend is mad at me but i'm not sure if i'm imagining it. i don't know why she would be mad at me, but she isn't talking to me as much as she used to. i feel like i did something wrong.

my mom is having an episode. she cried a lot and got sick and is lying down now. she accidentally injured herself and cut her leg pretty badly. i'm worried; hopefully she will be better again soon. i wish i knew what was wrong.