May 11, 2014
i feel very bad and sad and alone. i think i made one of my best friends hate me. i don't know what i did, but she hasn't been talking to me lately and i'm so sure i ruined the friendship, and i'm so ashamed of myself.
i felt nervous but okay during the day, but tonight hasn't been good. i don't know if it's just a mood swing or if i really messed up. i couldn't stop crying and wanting to die. i went for a long walk and it tired me out too much to do anything bad, but i still feel hopeless.
tomorrow i'll probably feel different again.
i feel like i have no control over my emotions.