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Day 5

Mar 14, 2015 - 1 comments

Woke up feeling real bad this morning. Was hoping I might feel a tiny bit better today but thinking this is the worst it has been so far. Which is weird since I ate a very nutritious dinner last night (and kept it down) and actually got over 6 hours sleep-even if it was in 2 hour increments. Gonna allow myself a couple hours to curl up and pity myself and then I am getting my tired self dressed and going to see my grandchildren. I am very involved in their lives and haven't seen them in over a week. I am scared to death cause children can see right through all the bull. My daughter knows what is going on and she will be there with me to help me. We have decided to just tell the kids that I have something like an ear infection and the antibiotics are making me feel sick. Hate lying but really don't think the kids need to deal with this. God please give me the strength today to go see my babies, my soul misses them. Praying for strength today but resolve is still strong.


Mar 13, 2015 - 2 comments

Not feeling so good. All my good intentions for the day are quickly flying out the window! But that's ok. If I gotta just spend the day feeling like s**t and doing nothing then so be it. Not wanting to feel anything is how I ended up where I am. Trying to stay strong.

Day 3

Mar 12, 2015 - 0 comments

This is definitely a tough day but instead of thinking that a pill will make me feel better I am telling myself time will make me better.