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Jun 24, 2009 - 1 comments
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I'm to damn old for all this yard work, I want to move to a retirement village where a grounds keeper does all the yard work. lol....Been doing a little bit more each day, still don't seem any stronger just doing more and having to force myself to do it but at least it's getting done. I'm sleeping a little longer and sounder each night and I think the B12 is kicking in and doing what it's suppose to be doing finally. Have a doc apt tomorrow with the liver guy and hope it turns out ok, I don't seem as swollen as I once was. Still crave the **** everyday and that's still a fight but I'm dealing with it. Would you believe my reg. doc refilled my script for Vicodin, not the same dosage but lower because I have hands that hurt from the arthritis so bad at times I can't hold the paint brush but I took the script and tore it up and said thanks but no thanks. At first I took it and thought maybe if I took them the way I used to before I started abusing but I said to myself no way Jose, so I tore it up. Hubby was way proud of me. I know that if I took one or two I could do more in my yard and work longer in the day but I figure the stuff will get done at some point so just take my time at it. I'll appreciate the finished product a lot more. And I don't have to be super anything anymore right? right!!....Love to you all and to all I don't know hang in there your win  will come...
Jan
Enjoy my tulips...

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Life

Jun 16, 2009 - 2 comments
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Tis be another day in the life of Jan, seem to be coping better, still tired, a little edgy sometimes, and it seems like every darn day I am craving the stuff in my head, my head tells me gee if you took one you would feel so much better and be able to accomplish so much more than you are right now, but I know it's all a big freaking lie. I'm able to do a little more each day and that's a good thing. Sleeping much better and longer hours now, but still get up three times a night to go potty. I have docs apt again on Friday to start new diet for liver function and see if I can get that cleared up and on the mend, other than that I am still waiting for my ship to come in. What's not to love about that smile from my daughter, that carries me through my long long days as well as all or you...Thank you so much.

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Best day yet

Jun 13, 2009 - 0 comments
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OMG I feel so much better today. Maybe the vits are kicking in finally. I know I forced myself to do some things yesterday and was very tired after wards but felt better in the long run. Some fatigue today but no enough to even jot down in here, the same as yesterday. Now to get the liver fixed I'll be on the mend. Yeeeeeeeeeeehawwwwwww...dukes of hazzard...The picture is of my beautiful daughter and me, she makes me smile a lot....

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Monday

Jun 08, 2009 - 4 comments
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Never one a Sunday a Sunday a Sunday, that's a day of rest, maybe I should take Monday for a day of rest to. Have apt with Doc again tomorrow and I have this sneaky feeling I will be staying at the hospital for some test, I may be wrong and that would be nice but my tummy is sure getting fuller. I'm impatient to see what the real problem is.

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