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Going back to my ob today...

May 04, 2009 - 0 comments
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HCG

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trying

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help

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hand



My bleeding is pretty much like a period except not like my usual..Today I have an appointment for 1:40 to talk about my hcg levels a possible pap and us.I don't know what to expect...I guess I am leaning towards that I had a miscarriage or I am still going through the process of one...It would be a miracle if my baby was okay and that is what I am hoping for.My boyfriend keeps telling me that we don't know and trying to stay optimistic but I think deep down inside he is thinking the same thing I am. It doesn't help that we haven't been getting along pretty much through this whole thing. I know God is capable of some wonderful things but maybe He knows something that we don't ...I'm going to try to leave it in HIs hands....

Day 2 in the hopsital...

May 03, 2009 - 0 comments
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day 2

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Baby

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Bleeding

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HCG

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gestational



I'm going to my second visit to the hospital because right now I am having what they call a "threatened abortion"...It's sounds as bad as it feels....Last time I went to the ER now I am going to get bloodwork again to determine whether or not my hcg levels are where they should be...In my mind I feel that my baby is gone or in the process but in my heart I hope not! My us showed a gestational sac and a yolk sac which is good for 5 weeks along and my hcg levels two days ago were high but the bleeding is so much I am not optimistic...Yesterday was the first day I didn't cry but today I may not have a choice...I have prayed I have rested I have done everything now it is in God's hands...I love my baby even though I don't even know him or her..Hoping for the best......