i have made it through the day and damn if it hasn't been a long one. this morning i was ok..but as the day went on i felt every muscle in my body start to ache, i craved an oxy so bad but i give my mom all my money and told her to not let me out of the house today or tomorrow. i did take a half of a perk 5 to ease some pain around midnight, but atleast it wasn't an oxy. my poor husband had to go to work today detoxing. i can't see how he does it, he has more will power than me. kudos for him!! hopefully tomorrow will be better, but ive heard people say the worst days are day 3, 4 and 5. plz god let me have the will power to be okay, for myself and a new life i may have after this.
tomorrow is the big day, i am attempting for the first time to quit snorting oxy's. i just hope and pray that i can get through the dope sickness, it scares the hell out of me. especially knowing that i can fix the problem by driving right around the corner. i can't go to detox i have kids, young babies that need me.