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Jun 22, 2009 - 4 comments

I am back on my pain medication. This time it is being dispensed to me at a much lower dose than before for my back pain and I am not allowed to take my own dose to get high. So there will be no more getting "High" but at the same time I am back using again :( .

I have learned a valuable and hard lesson in the last couple months about drugs and myself. I assure you, soon enough I will be back and battling this again. I will stick around here also to help people out and keep in touch with friends.

At the moment I am trying to quit smoking, so all is not lost. I think more than anything, smoking has negatively affected my life in too many ways. Now I can get back into playing in my soccer league and get my body healthy again.

I have set the recovery date from pain meds for exactly a year from now when me and the people around me can also get clean as well, instead of just me and having to deal with them being around.

Send me messages!! I would love to hear from everybody. I would also love to thank everyone for all the support you have given me and apalogize for failing you.

I'll be back though. They allways come back :)

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That is it.

Jun 18, 2009 - 0 comments

No more. I will not tolerate it anymore. I will not be another statistic to opiod abuse.

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Jun 11, 2009 - 1 comments

I am at a real cross-roads now. Today I am clean. Tomorrow will either be marked as a 0, or as a 200.

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Jun 08, 2009 - 0 comments