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3rd day of new med

Nov 13, 2009 - 0 comments

today is Friday the13th. I am taking a new drug to replace lithium. I am so angry that I have to do this! Lithium has been such a great med for me. I wish my kidney hadn't had such a bad reaction to it. The new med is not going to work. I am a emotional wreck. Oh well. Something will work. This is only try number one. I am blessed to have my fantastic husband at my side cheering me on. And of course there is the KISS concert this Sunday to look forward to!!  LOL!!! Still can't believe I'd ever go to a KISS concert!!! LOL LOL!!!!!

bipolar depression

Nov 12, 2009 - 0 comments

Bipolar Depression

Need to find a way to get out of this depression. Feel like I'm sinking. Thoughts of death. Cry a lot. But can't let all this defeat me.

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family issues

Nov 11, 2009 - 0 comments

Stephs' addiction so much a problem. She won't pay her rent. We are so upset. I don't know if any new meds will work to replace lithium. Keep thinking about death. Can't tell anyone.

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went to see kidney dr for 1st time

Nov 05, 2009 - 0 comments


Have to stop taking lithium because it's the likely cause of my recent kidney damage. I'm afraid what will happen with my bipolar without it, But I'm also afraid for my life with it. I'm scared. This is new and confusing. I am afraid I'll go back to the dark place I live in before the lithium. I can't go there again.

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