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Jul 26, 2009 - 0 comments
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weakness

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hurts

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complex

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boys



i havent been on for forever. well heres what happened. my sister was dating a guy. hes a junior councilor at our day camp (age 16) and you cant do anything with him because hed get fired.

so yah. i am still dating my girlfriend but i took the boy (jeremy) from my twin. d (the girl) is awesome but im not as attracted to her as i wish i was.

now jeremy. **** hes so messed up.he was abused hes obsessive jealous and rage filled. i also think that a lot of the stuff he says is **** to make him seem more interesting. ex.

jeremy:i dont do drugs
me: i do some times cause i get so angry that i need to or im gonna hurt somebody.
jeremy:dont over do it. one of my best friends over dosed and ill never forget it.

SEE!!! one uping! i mean, i love being controlled but his story is just getting bigger and more complex. i think he just wants people to love him and thinks that if his story is epic, ill love him. uggghhhhh. i dont need any of this baggage but i like that he has a job. i like that he is controlling territorial and loving but i feel like hes so weak. i cant stand weakness. it kinda digusts me.

so, hes coming to my place tomorrow and my dad works forever so he wont be there. so i was talking to his friend and he said that jeremy said that he was going to nail me. aand im like "was i asked?"

grrrrrrr, i dont need this.

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sad

Jul 19, 2009 - 3 comments
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cat

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toilet

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Crying



my cat is curled up next to me. i again thought of her death and started crying.  im afraid that she's going to die because we think she's 11. In other news my crappy toilet has backed up again and i don't want it to still be clogged when my dad gets back from wherever. one good thing is that my laundry hamper is still here which means that we will probably go to my grandparents house. i need to remember to ask my grandma for lunch money...

nothing hapened

Jul 18, 2009 - 0 comments
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internet

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excited

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i spent my day on the internet. i don't wanna sleep because i fell excited. i don't know what for. i feel so pent up. i just wanna go out and get in a fight or make out.

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oh no

Jul 17, 2009 - 0 comments
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regret



i dont have enough money to buy food. so i stole candy from wal-mart. its all i could do. i dont feel regret but i feel like some one saw me. so i feel nervous.

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