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Jan 23, 2014 - 9 comments
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iwas sick all night last night a slept a little today.  still feel nauseated and have a little fever.Problems really get to me.  All the kids are coming up next week.  i was hoping he would still have a job.  probably lost it so he could follow jessica up here.  she goes in for pre op monday and surgery  tuesday. she has had this done before.I love them all so much.  but sometimes i dont feel like it. Having a house full of people saying  can we order a pizza and bar b que wings and cheese sticks?  some times they go get it and go to several places and they eat a lot.  but they look at me like we need money.  they give no change i think i got b$3.oo back once.  yay.  logan is going to bring some homework he said he wants to read to me.  so i guess i will be his teacher.  i kind of like that.  i just want to feel better. i know my acid reflux was bad last night.  does your nerves cause that to get worse?  Nothing seems to help my nerves and the doctor want give me anything else.  I feel like a fly caught in a spider web.  cant get out and no place to go if i do.  Tammy went to her gynocologist.  they took a chunk out to send off to see what is wrong.  she had a histerectomy years ago. she had c sections on all of them.  but she had them too close.  I sound like i am very selfish.  she needs her surgery and wants to go to the doctor who did her last surgery and delivered Logan.She wanted me to go to the doctor witth her.  we got there and she filled out the paper work.  she chacha she needs $100.00 now.   i got my check book out she said no checks.  so out comes the visa. she wrote all my information including my drivers license. i told her not to put anything else on my card without getting my permission first.  i did not like that.  i want to go far away and just think.  but dont have a stupid car.  I am so tired..  just need someone to talk to.  I really am sick and dont feel like talking.  if anyone wants to chat let me know.  i dont know how much more i can take.  i will be 74 in May.  charlene     mandy876  

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by 4Maddie44, Jan 23, 2014
Charlene, I am so sorry you have been so poorly.  Last thing you need.  

I used to get indigestion and heartburn quite a lot, but since stopping the Effexor it has calmed down a lot, so the medication must have caused it.  I never thought about the anti depressants causing such problems.  

I thought you said you would not give the family any more money.  You said you had told Tammy this.  How come you are giving them money again?  Is it because they have none of their own?  No it does not sound at all as if you are being selfish.  When they want to go out for food, you must tell them to use their own money.  If they are not working, I presume they are getting some sort of benefit.  You are not their bank.  Yes your permission must be sought first, that is the decent thing to do.

I know you love them all, but please do not let them take such advantage of you.  What will they do when your money dries up?  

As we get older, we need more looking after.  We are now 73 years of age, and this is when the family should be seeing to our needs, not the other way round.  Things seem to be going well with you, and you say you have sorted things out, and then you get stressed as things seem to go wrong again.  Oh my dear Charlene, I don't know what to say.  You must not get so stressed as it badly affects your help, but I don't know how you can be less stressed in the circumstances.

Problems get to me too.  The slightest thing, and I get stressed, just like you.  Usually I get headaches.  

So difficult if there is no way of getting out.  If only you could have some "me" time when you can relax and "chill out."  I know I am lucky because here it so easy to go for a walk, or get on a bus.  I hardly miss my car.  Mind you yesterday I got a bus to town and bought a washing up bowl, a dish drainer and a cutlery drainer.  They were difficult to get home.  I puffed up my road pulling my trolley and holding a shopping bag.  That is when I do miss the car, when I have awkward shopping to buy.  

You know people here are always willing to chat to you.  We know you need to let off steam.  

Hope things do improve for you.



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by mandy876, Jan 23, 2014
thanks you are so sweet.  none of them have any money they never think about tomorrow.  they spend all heir money and say we dont have money.  they dont think.  Tammy just heard from jessie and only she and logan or coming.  this will be easier.  this how our little family started.  jessie is nice to me i have to be care ful she will tell her mother everything.  then it turns into eeveryone upset and mad for a while.  until someone gets hingry and needs money.  i will say tammy listned to me and has not asked me for money,  we got us a barbque sandwich i got my purse she said no i am paying for this.  she says i have her worried about money now.  maybe there is hope.  i do love them.  bobby keeps all his money.  he gave jessica his debit card the last time they came she had to call and ask him if she could get a drink for her and the baby.  i never had that problem in my life.  when i worked mom would nt take my money.  so i went into her room and told her there will be money on my dresser unde the blue vase,  it better be gone when i get home.  nothng was ever said each payday i would give her money and it was always gone.  she cleaned my room kept my clothes all done up and supper was on the table.  i love my mom so much.  my daddy was a big teddy bear that was a police officer the he became a detective.  i was so proud of him.  he was a good cop. my hubby was a mail man when we met he delivered mail to where i worked he asked me out several times.  my boss said go out with him.  the postal dance was coming up i went with him and i knew we would be togetther.  he was the one.   i still have a headache and a little nauseus. but i guess this will pass.   hug to a sweet friend  charlene

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by ROSYouralright, Jan 23, 2014
I just wanted to drop in and say hello.. I don't have any of the right answers but I do read your journals and am here if you ever need /want to talk, vent etc...

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by mandy876, Jan 23, 2014
thank you rosy.  i do times when i feel like i am drowning and a friend to talk to woiuld be grrat.  thank  you.  mandy876

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by ROSYouralright, Jan 23, 2014
Anytime... Seriously!!

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by sara12345, Jan 24, 2014
Did I understand that you let Tammy take down all the information on your credit card as well as your driver's license?  That was a big mistake.  The next time she has a more manic episode, your credit card could be used for a lot.  You should cancel that credit card and get a new one to replace it. And what about Maddie's comment that you weren't going to spend any more money on the family?  What will happen when you have no money?  I wonder about your judgment.  You can get into big trouble.

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by sara12345, Jan 24, 2014
You said that you don't have a car, but if you didn't spend so much money on the family, you would have money for a taxi.


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by mandy876, Jan 25, 2014
i know i  messed up bad but jessie is sick she has endometreosis i think i spelled that right.  her stupid boyfriend want keep a job.  she has to have surgery.  they want let her have insurance.  they told her she should get child support for both babies.  they want help her.  i cant let her hurt this was. but this is the last time on tuesday is the day i say no more.  i have already talked to tammy and told her i did not have to depend on her any more i could get a ride to the doctor and to get my groceries.  she said there is no reason why i cant take you.  she has cooked 2 meals and bought is a bar b que sandwich.  she has cleaned the house and has done some yard work.  she bought a foam mattress for our sofa she paid for it with her money.  i think i got through.  i dont know how jessica is going to take.it.  tammy has been bleeding and had a hysterectomy years ago we got her into see a doctor on her JPS plan  they took a chunk and we have not back the results.  it cosr 10.00 she paid for it.  and she is tryimg to get her job back. i have had a cold since december 26  and am still coughing and sick.  i cant get rid of it.  my doctor gave me a steroid shot. i promise i am working on this they are going to pay me back with their income tax money.  they are 1 month behind on their rent and their phones are fixing to be cut off.  i have changed my credit card 3  times.  this is a care card no interest.  the doctor sets the payment schedule.    they did it.  i had to ok it but i am still mad.   charlene  hope you are doing better.  sorry i only talked about me.  i have been worried about you.it is for medical bills only.  they set it at 6,000.oo i changed it to 3,000.oo dollars.   charlene

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by sara12345, Feb 03, 2014
It sounds like you have made great progress with Tammy.  But you will have to keep up the pressure or she will just lapse back into her selfish ways.  And good for you for changing your credit cards so they can't rip you off.  If Jessie's boyfriend needed to work and didn't get hand outs, he could get a job today at a place like McDonalds fast food.   Take care.  Sara

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