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19 weeks & 4 days, NO HEART BEAT

Feb 16, 2014 - 6 comments

What a feeling of deja vu.  I knew something was wrong so I went to the ER, I was right.  No heart beat.  I'll be seeing my dr tomorrow & getting induced either Monday or Tuesday.  I am done.  This was a surprise pregnancy & we finally came to accept it & started getting excited.  I will no longer TTC or be pregnant again.  I am really going to push for my hysterectomy.  I cannot keep doing this, physically or emotionally.  I AM DONE.

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by mhv, Feb 16, 2014
I saw your journal, and just wanted to say how sorry I am.  Your right, life isn't fair.  No one should have to endure te pain you are feeling.  Again, I am so sorry.

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by Echo30, Feb 17, 2014
What a cruel cruel trick. I am so so sorry for your loss.  I am in the middle of a surprise myself and its so unnerving and confusing to be wanting something so much and not sure if you want something so much, and then have to go through what you're going through. I wish you peace and a quick recovery, I hope that whatever you decide with the hysterectomy or going forward from here you find comfort and peace.

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by pb95, Feb 19, 2014
I'm sorry to hear this.  I too found myself at 18 weeks knowing something was wrong and found no heartbeat.  If you want to talk, please message me.  Hugs to you.

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by krichar, Feb 20, 2014
My heart hurts for you... Even though you have your sweet miracle baby after previous heartbreaks, it doesn't make it any easier. Even though I'm not around that often I'm still here if you need me

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by queenspade, Feb 20, 2014
Thank you so much, I'm not around much anymore either.  :(  It never gets any easier, even though I had a feeling all along that things weren't going to go well.  I opted to go to the hospital alone & have my hubby stay home with our little boy.  Not sure why but this time I just wanted to be alone, to have time to myself to process & to say my goodbyes.  My hubby had a really hard time with our previous loss so he was ok with my decision.  I declined any testing on her, I didn't want anyone touching her.  I just didn't see the point.  After all of my losses to still be in the same situation & have no answers.  I told my Dr that we are DONE, we need to discuss some permanent options.

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by retta483, Feb 20, 2014
:( i am so sorry hun . sending prayers for you and dh

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