Feb 16, 2014
Best to be straight up honest feeling awful my skin is burning i feel like i'm wearing broken glass! and my skin's been peeled of and salt rubbed in all over!1 i been going through this for yer's thanks to freaking oxy!! it doesnt stop with the drug either!! its still there. i keep reading a bout PAWS and it can last for 2 year's? well you don't see much about people that have it for longer than tha i've only seen it one myself ''and some peole have it for life?
I been sufferibg this agony for year's noe even when i stop this **** and my skin? it feels like paper! it's this crap even my mouth is sore it dry's your skin out. And i seen the pictures of people on meths amphetamine thats what THIS **** does to you, it makes you look like hell!!
And my face fell's like some bastrd been rubbing it with sand paper all nigh? And my hands the pain in my hads they just feel permanantly swollen now. The number of peole i know on drugs and got problems fromt he drugs? an i don't just mean addition. And none of us are high, i'vee yet to see any of us you could consider high on these drugs we've all got something wrong from the drugs and the worse pat is will it EVER get better? I been having this awful pain fo year's now 8 year's?
Maybe longer? My muscles are atrophied My God why don't they warn you about the terrible toll this **** weraks on you mentally and ohysically and my face i cant rubbed the skin on my face it feels like its on fire!! I know people that have tapered or CT'd Heroin and they never said anything about these symptoms happening only about your head being done in and your guts feeling like your dying and the usual sweats and stuff.
And people differ no matter what the drug. I know people that costed through different WD'S or bu now felt an improvement but i'm feeling worse than ever no. I can remeber the one time about 3, 4 yare's ago i was in my bed and this burning pain? It felt like acid running through me veins!! i was sat screaming and terrified and in the end i ended up taking 19 co-codamol pill;s in 2 hours?
and still no relief and then sonya taking me to the Hospital barely able to sit there and the DR? A kid that never even taken an asprin or had ANY pain EVER!! It like you get a sixth sense as far as knowing without anyone telling you BUT maybe its just me? I have asked other people if they feel like that near another ill person but they just look at me odd. So maybe its me and who ever else i've yet to meet them.
But Maggie next door she's got rhematoid arthritis and i really feel for her but if i ever say isn't it sad about anyone else being ill she alway's say's 'I don't wanna hear anyone elses sad sob story!! I know shes not well and God!! Shes injecting some drug in to her stomach for it once a week, pill's she was on steroids and i've tried for year's being as we're bot arthritic to see if she wants to cone swimming to see if that helps at all. My sister saw a guy that was a long time neighbour of ours and he had arthritis and said he been going swimming for 2 yaer's noe and it was the best thing he's ever done as it's a great help.
And i get fed up with asking people that were ok to come with me but it was pointless. Everyone sai yes and no one evr did. And the one time i went alone i was ok once i got in the water but jeez!! When i got out? i thought i'd never get dressed and outta the changing room i had to take 6 DHCodine and sit there freezing. wet and crying and it never helped so i struggled to get dressed unable to dry properly and it was winter. Freezing weather and the Cab driver trying to carry me to the car it was hell! I was screaming evrytime he touched me with the pain.
I AM DEPRESSED !! I need to try and find if anyone else has had similar symptoms on these drugs that's another thing when things happen to you it makes you despair when there's no one to reassure you that it happens but it will go away some where down the line if ever? All these year's? I am worn out having my hopes dashed and i wish to God i never met certain people too