Mar 12, 2014
Yesterday, I tried to take my lamictal in the evening to see if it made me less tired throughout the day. It turns out, I forgot to take it until about 1 a.m. I finally went to bed around 6 a.m., something I haven't done in a long time (unless I'm cramming for a test). I woke up around 9 to cancel my psych appointment. By 9:30, all I hear is hammering and banging. The work crew that removes the carpet was next door ruining my sleep. It was so loud, I can't even describe it. So, around 1 I started working on this step stool I have been constructing. Aside from 15 of those mini pizza roll bite-sized things and a cup of tea, I did not eat all day. I went to Harbor Freight to return an extension cord and went to Lowes to get more wood. Other than that, I worked all day straight through to get this thing 95% done. I built it looking at a picture of some Ikea step-stool. I just found a picture I had liked on the internet, and tried to make it. They had basic assembly instructions, which helped me to figure out what types of pieces I should make. I did chat with a couple of neighbors I had been avoiding due to the sobriety and not really being into their lifestyle in general. About 5 days ago, I weighed 10 pounds heavier than I do right now- though I was full the first time I weighed myself (last week) and completely foodless and urineless this time. I didn't have clothes on either time for the weigh in, so I think it's safe to assume I have lost 5 pounds. I really have only been eating SweetTarts and junk like that. I'm not even really drinking water, just about 3 cups of hot tea a day.I really do like the tea. I made my own blend which is my favorite by far. It is one bag of chamomile tea and one bag of peppermint, candy cane, or whatever minty tea.I happen upon. Tastes awesome. I should be eating food though, and not working for 13 hours on a stool. I'm definitely going to ice my knee now that I remembered what I put it through today kneeling on my porch over a miter saw continuously for hours. On the plus side, this is by far the most intricate, detailed, and best work I have ever done. The grand total cost was about 7 dollars, since I used very inexpensive 2X1's and a couple of 1X8's I salvaged... Wow, it really is going to look awesome. I've gotten better at realizing when is time to eat. Other than ordering food though, which I really can't be spending money on, I have not translated the concern into action. I do tell people when I haven't eaten. Usually telling a family member helps, they get me something in my stomach asap. Problem is, I see a family member maybe two times a month. I wish I felt hungry or knew what to do about this. I'm going to try to get some sleep now, before I go full blown hypomanic from not sleeping.