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VBS Day 4

Jul 02, 2009 - 0 comments
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Fireworks

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elementary school

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jared DE

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jacob DE

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christian cult

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I really swear I will take my depakote and wellbutrin tonight. It baffles me why I've been having so much trouble convincing myself to take any pill larger than a speckle. I think Justin's here. I think someone told steve. He's upset, about something. I wanted to go to the fireworks tomarrow. Tomarrow will be the one year anniversary of my...mistake. I'm very scared. But steve says he'll prolly be hanging out with furbs. Oh, ok. His brother's having a party, he'll prolly go to that too. I need to hurry this up. I had driver's ed, I actually talked to a few kids. I believe a Corey and a Jacod, and a Jared introduced himself. I'm scared, I have my first dfirinv hour and OT on Monday. Today was Day 4 of VBS, I woke up with a soar throat, extremely fatigued, and coughing. ******* a. I went to steve's, we had a nap. I dreampt a lot of really silly dreams, about spaghetti and gas powered pedal bikes. I dreamt I smoked a cigar. I'm so pathetic I've been dreaming of smoke. I desperately want a ciggarette, but I will not ask for a drag because I am sick and it's only polite. And yeah. I guess today wasn't as eventful as I thought. I  feel really lightheaded and anxious. For the record, the more time I spend at bible camp, the more time I spend doubting this religion. It's really just a cult, and the god I choose to believe in and rely on, is not this predjudiced and self righteous.

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