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can't get enough; can't stop

Mar 14, 2014 - 4 comments

I joined this site a year ago feb when I was just a baby; taking vikes...trams.. But I graduated to heroin which I stopped last month...but now I am or WAS taking oxymorphone...opana I guess most say.

My lower back pain is so bad...and they can't diagnos it properly...

Plus HELL YES I like the high..I have badass bipolar...

Just can't stop...damn I kicked smack...just sooo ****ing tired....

I guess you all heard this sorry too much..but it IS real man...some can't stay the right way....

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by jugglin, Mar 15, 2014
We have not crossed paths, but I ran across your journal. I'm so sorry for your pain.  I wish I could make it better.  I get that you are tired.  I'm 46 and really tired as well.  But, I am learning that it really is better without.  My crappiest day without drugs is really better than my highest day on vicodin. I missed too much.  Too much life.  I don't know your story and don't want to come across as preachy but will be honest, have you tried inpatient?  Counseling? AA/NA? Church?  You need help sweetie.  You have so much life ahead of you. So much to live for...clean. Best to you.xoxo

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by meegWpaw, Mar 15, 2014
Hey k just want you to know im still here for you.  awesome you quit H and now you need to keep going.  I don't think this is good for you.    im so sorry about your back pain.  I been struggling too but pm me if you want to talk.  <3  meegy

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by weaver71, Mar 16, 2014
Even those who stagger, I mean crawl, even they go back an forth on the right path. Sometimes we just gotta keep looking further, as long as there is a single nerve pushing forward, you got the whole snake on your back. I feel you sister, I really do.

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by Sacrifice1, May 15, 2014
Sometimes it takes a long time to get what you really want.  Hell, sometimes it takes a really long time to figure out what it is that you really want.  I was addicted to opiates for years, switched to methadone for 12 years, been clean for 39 days.  I tried many, many time to quit and always went back.  This time has been better because I really want it now more than anything.  I got pissed and decided that I wasn't going to care how bad I felt, I wasn't going back.  I'm not into treatment programs, NA, or church.  I know that these things do work for some, but everyone's different.  You have to do what feels right for you.  So what if you fall off, try again, fall off, try again.  You will do it.  As far as things that have helped me this time - not eating crap - only real food, protein shakes daily, vitamins, walking, and making myself move even when I don't feel like it.  Stay Strong!!

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