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Mar 27, 2014 - 12 comments

HAHAHAHAA!!! What in the world do I write?!!!
Okay, so I want to sign up for a peer mediation role at my school, and for that you have to fill in a couple of questions...  Question 1 is hilarious, let me tell you now... for me anyway:

1. Tell us a little about your own school journey so far.

Its been a god damn rollercoaster, full of anxiety, sleep deprivation, depression, confusion, fear, thoughts of death, low self-esteem. And now? I made a stupid "choice" to give up on homework, and now am basically starting all over again.............................................But apart from that, its great. :)

YEP. Am going to be accepted for sure!! *sarcasm*
I really don't know what to write.. Do I make up some crap, and pretend to show myself off?

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by kungfupandaawesome, Mar 28, 2014
what you should do is say that youve gone through some rough patches but youve picked yourself up and youre carrying on
theres nothing to be ashamed of
youre perfect the way you are ( does that sound familiar? ;)  )

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by Nighthawk61, Mar 28, 2014
Yeah, i agree, be honest about your journey and you'll illicit real support, something you need right now. I'm not sure what Peer Mediation is exactly though. Can you explain it fully for us? Is this an after school class?

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by mishymoshymarcy, Mar 29, 2014
To kungfupandaawesome

hahha yeh it does sound very familiar. But you better believe it one day, because its true hun.


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by mishymoshymarcy, Mar 29, 2014
To Nighthawk61

Well peer mediation is basically keeping an eye out for conflict or arguments within the school. Then when you find somme, or are given some by the coordinators, you sit down with the students that are arguing and you help them resolve it. But peer mediators don't solve it for them, in reality they solve it themselves, but we get them to share their own side of the story and then work our way around that. No violence, no name calling, no interrupting. Just a sensible way to resolve problems between one another, with the help of trained older students.

I hope I get it, I really do. I think I would be a great person for it, I mean I have so much empathy, too much for my own good sometimes. Maybe with this I can stop focusing on myself all the time, and start focusing on others... I don't know if that's the way to go, but it may be a good thing.

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by Nighthawk61, Mar 29, 2014
Ah Grasshopper, hmmm well, if you want to come across as a person of interest that other students will feel comfortable opening up to and allowing them to give them some structure, then it's probably not the best thing to tell all of your own conflicts. This doesn't seem to be the right place for that.

I think this is the time to showcase your attributes. You would not be lying if you didn't choose to share personal information, nor would it be lying by omission. There are many sides to you Marcy. You've been an A and B student your whole life. You've always towed the line, and although you are going through some personal difficulties, you are finding help with that.

Maybe saying something like this..

I think it's important in our society to stand up for others in need.  Much the same as getting my First Aid and CPR training, I would love the opportunity to learn how to facilitate conflict resolution in my high school. I think this would be one of the highlights of my high school experience. I am a responsible person who does not believe in degrading, shaming bullying behavior, and feel that I could calmly carry out what I learn about conflict resolution.

What do you think? Have you put in for it yet?

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by Nighthawk61, Mar 29, 2014
I think this is exactly what you need , to have a totally "self less" endeavor. Plus you would gain more respect from those you admire, like the teachers.

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by Nighthawk61, Mar 29, 2014
Okay, so I reread, and while it would be beneficial to get that stuff in, the first question was about your school journey. right?

How long have you been at this school?
Have you had good grades the whole time? only now getting a couple of fails......

All in all, I have enjoyed my first two years of high school, although I have been having difficulties motivating myself to get my homework done as well as I have in the past. I  believe that in order to maintain my marks, I need to involve myself in a more human pursuit, and peer mediation is of great interest to me for this reason and at this time.

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by Nighthawk61, Mar 29, 2014
By the way, get into the counselor on Monday if you can. Maybe she can fast track your admittance into the peer mediation program , if she though it would be good for you. Let's work on you getting the questions answered so that she can consider them.  

For now, I would keep the extent of your personal problems to yourself and your counselor or VERY close friends.

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by mishymoshymarcy, Mar 29, 2014
I have answered the questions already. :) I handed it in. When I did, the teacher (who is the head of junior school), said she already knew a bit about me. From 2 years ago when I first developed anxiety and was having certain thoughts... Its funny and a little difficult sometimes to be in the same room as both of them... But the other teacher who she works with is a year level coordinator, and she is the one I told about my struggling. Then she obviously had to tell Ms Hall (the head of junior school), as she was of higher authority/level/ whatever you want to call it, who then made a phone call to my mum... So yeah....  That's how that went...

So I think there is a good chance I will get it. I think I am already in actually, because there is not enough time to receive a notice telling you you weren't accepted, before the training day. That is on this Wednesday by the way...
BUt you know what bothers me now? Or what I am worried about now? What if im not good enough to be a peer mediator. All these what if's in my head are really freaking me out. What if I am not of the standard that the teachers expect? And I want to make them proud sooooo much, especially because of all they have tried to help me in the past... but I would feel so bad about myself if I couldn't manage to do that... I try to do my best sometimes, but its never usually good enough. Maybe this links to the negative thoughts.... Maybe if I thought positive, I would do better, right???  

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by mishymoshymarcy, Mar 29, 2014
oh no no no, I have enough sense in me to not involve my own conflicts in this. I briefly mentioned that I have been to counselling, and that that has given me some tools in order to cope with anxiety, stress, and some conflict. And my skills and bla bla bla... But its not like I was actually going to write what I wrote on this journal... that was a sarcastic/silly thing I think, but I am a lot more sensible and close up about whatever it is im dealing with. Because really, the role isn't as much about my school issues, as it is about helping others resolves issues in a sensible way and making them happy to be at school.

I handed the sheet in already, but I can tell you now, that what I wrote is similar to what you wrote. But as my vocabulary isn't as advanced, it is in simpler form, I must say.. hehehe

Thanks a heap Liz. :)

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by Nighthawk61, Mar 30, 2014
I'm really PROUD of you Marcy. and I bet your Mom is too~ I'm sure your application was perfect. I don't think you've got anything to worry about. It's like your first part time job, right? and a really good one to have on your resume. They're going to give you all the guidelines that you need, and if you stick to them you'll do just fine.

Also, maybe you can research things like Industry Standards for Bullying and Race Relations and Sensitivity Training a bit on your own so that you have that under your belt when you get back to school after your holiday. Probably take a few hours of your time. And I KNOW your time will be spent VERY wisely on your holiday because unlike the last holiday, you have more to look forward to when you get back to school. You can spend a full day getting caught up on your studies, watch a documentary or two at night. and be extra vigilant and responsible. Your mom will notice no doubt. And you can hit your mom up to go and get EAT TO LIVE at the bookstore when you're off. and ask her to read it. It came highly recommended. Positive does beget Positive.

Happy thoughts honey.. Hope your day is going well and  you're doing what you need to do to be happy. (work). Everybody needs to work, you're right about that. when you said, you don't deserve to slack off.
Nobody get's a free lunch, If you don't work you don't eat. and school is your job. and if you're good at it, you can continue on with post secondary and get a fabulous career, as a Architect, or a Nurse, or a Journalist, or an Accountant, or Vet or a Xray Technician, or a ........well you see where I'm going don't you ? THE WORLD IS YOUR OYSTER MY FRIEND. YOU'RE GOING PLACES ,  

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by mishymoshymarcy, Mar 30, 2014
I don't have a part time job yet... And I don't want one yet. We have work experience at the end of the year, and my school said that students that don't hadn in their work experiences forms, will be doing work experience in the Library. It occurred to me that maybe that would be for the best. Honestly Liz, I know you don't want me saying this but I can't tell anyone else... I cant do work experience like this, I just can't. Mum wants me to work with her at a Locum service (call center for doctors). Her boss offered me a place to work there, but im so scared. I know your probably thinking that every teenager is scared to get a part time job, and your right.... I know that.... But I don't think I can do it. I know I have to think positive, but I need more time. I mean this year is going to fly by, and what if I don't have this homework thing sorted out? Or what if my anxiety and possible depression gets worse... I don't know how I am going to cope......

Yes! That's what I was thinking myself. hahaha to research a bit about it alone, so that I sort of have some background on the role that I am taking.
I imagine myself going places, Liz. I have not made it nor am on my way yet. haha but I imagine that I can be great, its just whether I believe I am capable or not... :)

Hope you day is well also Liz. xx

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