Apr 16, 2014
Today I am really learning about what forgiveness really is all about, as a preachers daughter I should know what that word means and live it everyday however it's much harder to do!! Being sober and doing my programs and therapy forgiveness is really talked about plus I want to be forgiven as well so why wouldn't I want to forgive? I have just had such a hard time with this one issue for the last 7 months and I have been throwing it in my husbands face on a daily basis due to my heart then today I was told forgiveness is about letting go of that anger and hurt and not throwing it back in that individuals face anymore it was like a slap in the face!!! I have been hurting my husband and myself over and over due to my own anger and unforgiveness!! I do not want to do that any longer so I have placed positivity cards all over my house with quotes of forgiveness to remind me that forgiving is for me not only for the other person!! I do not ever want to go back to using pills to hide my feelings because I can't forgive! God is really working on my heart and soul right now and I am just opening up and allowing him to which is so wonderful I find myself crying at times just because my heart is so full of raw emotion!