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Wired and Tired

Apr 19, 2014 - 4 comments

cold turkey




aches and pains



Man, I would love to sleep.  It would be so easy to walk into my closet and grab some methadone.  Everything would go away - the anxiety, the aches and pain, the jitters and shivers - but I guess I'll go make myself another damn healthy shake.  Anything worthwhile is painful, right?  OK, I'll stop the bitchin and complaining.  It gets me nowhere.  I think I'll go take a run, yea that sounds good LOL.  But, it might take my mind off it for a minute or two.

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by atthebeach, Apr 20, 2014
Hello and welcome to MH. I am glad that you found us. Congrats on wanting to reclaim your life.
I just got back from Florida on Thursday and passed right through Jupiter.
I had sent some time there years ago.
What dose of methadone were you on when you quit?
Keep moving it will help to repopulate your natural brain chemistry.
Sending strength and healing,

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by Sacrifice1, Apr 20, 2014
thanks for responding and YES I want to make my life my own again.  I hope you had a good time in Florida.  The weather has been sort of sporadic -rain, sun, hot, cool, etc., etc.

I was on 120 mg.  I tapered down to 70, then just quit.  I was tired of dragging it out - I was finally ready and I just figured that I would bite the bullet and get over it.  I've always been a very energetic person - with or without drugs.  I wonder if that makes it worse.  I can't stay still when I'm high.  I can't stay still when I'm straight.  You are right though, moving is the key.  I'm not going to say that I feel good when I move, but I definitely feel better than when I let myself buy into my bad feelings.  Again, thanks for your support.  I hope that everything is good with you!!

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by atthebeach, Apr 20, 2014
Your welcome. How long did you take to taper from 120 to 70?  When did you quit?
Drink lots of protein shakes.
How are you feeling?
We had mostly nice,sunny weather.
My parents have a home in port orange just south of Daytona beach.
My oldest son was born there and one lives in Sarasota.
We spent time in both places.
It was crummy the last day in west Palm.

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by Sacrifice1, Apr 26, 2014
I'm so sorry but I didn't see your post.  I went from 120 to 70 over about 2 months.  I was going down 10mg every week or so.  I stopped on April 11th.  I have a protein shake every day.  I feel pretty rough, but actually not as bad as I was thinking it would be.  It's pretty much just anxiousness, insomnia, aches and pains, and the blues.  Glad you had a good trip to Florida.  You got out of here just in time - the past couple days have been HOT.  I'm not looking forward to the 100 degree days, but I know they're coming.  Thanks for the communication!

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